The Core Reason

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It wasn't too long ago that he liked my best friend,

I was there for him for a long time,

so why did he only fall in love now?

he didn't like me, he liked the affection.

he became closer to me just because of the rejection

plus I'm moving away, I don't want to cause him pain by waiting for me, suffering through a long-distance relationship, or giving more than I can repay him for.

He deserves better.

it hurts even more now, to be honest, it breaks my heart and tears it apart.

why? this is why.

he and my best friend are closer than ever, they're close friends even after she rejected him.

yet he and I are not.

he never liked me as a friend or as a lover,

if he did like me for the reasons he stated, why aren't we close anymore? or even friends?

why doesn't he talk to me the way he does to her?

why does he treat me like a stranger MONTHS after the rejection? when they were back to normal in a matter of weeks?

why am I different?

this messed me up so much, am I really not likable, am I really just bad as a potential friend?

that's a topic for another day.

it hurts so much knowing he never truly liked me, only the idea of me.

he didn't even love me

it was all infatuation

and that hurts so much.

is the best version of myself really just tied to people's ideals? and once they know who I truly am, they get dissapointed and leave me in the dust?

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