𝙊𝙣𝙚 𝙔𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙖𝙩 𝙖 𝙏𝙞𝙢𝙚

15 Years Old

AUGUST 3RD 1982
As I waited for Robin patiently, I noticed Steve walked back and forth, almost stressed. He noticed I was staring at him and walked over. "You okay?" I asked. Maybe his grades have improved and that's why he's stressing. "Would you like to go to the movies tonight? Just us?" He replied. I felt my face turned red and I started to stutter in shock. "Yeah.. Why not?" I smiled. He beamed and bit his lip. "Meet after school?" He said. The stress suddenly disappeared off his face and I nodded. He skipped away and I was left smiling to myself. I decided not to tell Robin otherwise she'd tell the whole school.

After school, me and Robin parted ways. Little did she know, I immediately turned back around to meet Steve. He held my hand and we walked towards the movies, talking to one another. We had a lovely chat and it felt.. comfortable. I don't want to get too into details about the date but just know it's the best one i've been on- The only one but it's better than the movies. When we got outside my door, he squeezed my hand and had a soothing smile on his face. "What?" I laughed, flustered. He leant in and planted a kiss on my face. I got embarrassed and ran inside slamming the door. I leant against it with a smile on my face and my mom prodded me for the details of my day which I didn't tell her of course. I went to Dustin's room instead and told him all about it. Maybe this could be his chance to get a brother like figure I thought.

For the next few months, we had gone on multiple dates yet he never officially asked me out.. Weird, right? I shrugged it off anyway, we were only young. Steve had come over to my house multiple times and his bond with Dustin was unbreakable. It's almost like me and him were soulmates. I don't want to get too ahead of myself, we hated each other at first. I did eventually tell Robin and she fan girled every day. I guess that's all I have to update you on.

NOVEMBER 4Th 1982
I am now 15 years old. You have lived a year in my life and there's still more to come. Robin knocked at my door and I quickly walked off to school with her. I was more excited to see Steve. When we arrived, we walked up to him and he... walked off. We looked at each other, extremely confused. Did I do something wrong? We shrugged it off and walked inside. I had art first so maybe he had a surprise for me.

I sat down next to him with a massive grin on my face. "It's my birth-" "Look, Adam, I don't actually like you, you know. Me and my friends just thought it would be funny and I cant lie.. It was extremely funny." He interrupted. My posture stiffened. A shocked, deeply pained look appeared on my face. I closed my eyes and sat back in my chair. I poked a tongue against my cheek and exhaled. I felt humiliated. "I hope we can still be friends." He added, chuckling to himself. That line annoyed me. He thinks we can still be friends after that?

I don't think I really comprehended what he just said until I saw Robin. I felt a tear drip down my cheek and a fake smile appear on my face. She ran towards me and gave me hug, asking what's wrong. I told her everything on the way to class. She wiped my tear and we walked in, sitting down. Robin and I were sat next to each other but Steve was also sat with us. He tried talking to us for the whole lesson but we ignored him.

Once class ended, we sprinted out. I could feel a lump in my throat. All those months for nothing? How do I explain this to Dustin? I wasn't paying attention and bumped into Nancy. "Watch where you're going!" She yelled. I just stared at her. "Awe, did Steve tell you everything?" She said laughing. Carol walked up beside her, also laughing. That whole group has corrupted her. I didn't reply back but the tears in my eyes just flooded out. I quickly wiped them away and Robin pulled me away. "You didn't reply back to her..? He really messed you up." Robin spoke sadly, clinging onto me. I loved her company. I saw Steve walking towards us and I froze in my tracks. "Hey, I didn't expect you to cry over it. I thought you still hated me and was playing along." He stroked my arm but I brushed it off. "Woah. I was just comforting you, like a good friend." He added. I stared into his eyes. Those words flipped a switch inside me... I'm not sure if I was angry or sad. "You are not my friend. Friends don't do this to each other. Stop pretending that you care about me!" I wiped the streaming tears off my face and he looked at me in shock.

Robin pulled me away. It was probably for the best. I felt so betrayed. I wouldn't have cared as much if Nancy didn't know about it. Perfect little Nancy... I wouldn't be surprised if her and Steve start dating. They're the picture perfect couple. Robin and I were sat in our spot and she was helping me calm down with her usual jokes. Of course it worked. She's a natural comedian. "How's Dustin?" She asked. She hasn't seen him in a week due to Steve coming over and that's when I realised... He's going to be heart broken. I don't think I could handles seeing his eyes fill up with tears.

I got home and avoided everyone. Robin and I went straight to my room, locking the door. "Let it out." Robin said as she out her arm around me. I laughed and let out a loud sigh. "I thought we weren't going to hate eachother.. Like we were undoing all the negative feelings for one another. I'm not clueless, I should have seen this coming. When we go to school tomorrow, he'll probably make up some sort of excuse to make him the good guy. If he loved me, he wouldn't do that. He'd avoid it, right? We tried erasing the fact we were enemies and replacing it with acquaintances- But that's not possible. We were trying to do something that we both know wouldn't work. But now- Now that he's shown his true colours, I wouldn't change the past. Ever." There were no tears. Just anger. I heard a sob come from outside my door and looked at Robin, confused. Maybe it was mom. I unlocked it and opened it to see Dustin crying. I felt my heart shatter and then I started crying. He ran off to his room and slammed his door. I followed behind him and waited out there for him to talk to me. I can't blame him for acting like this. They had an amazing bond.