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TW: mentions of ED n passing out
y/n pov: it was around 12pm and i was already up since 9 in the morning. i know matt wakes up late but for months now he's been waking up around 12 or 1. i let him sleep bc sometimes u just need that rest, plus i'm not his mom so he can sleep as long as he wants. i was making some pasta for everyone and heard footsteps coming to the kitchen i see matt in his pjs coming towards me. "good morning baby" i say as he puts his arms around me. he rested his head on my shoulder. "good morning" he mumbled. "u ok?" i asked him. "mhm" is all he said. "want cereal? or pancakes, or start ur day off w pasta?" i chuckle at the end. "no thank u baby, i'm not hungry"he said and let go of me. i looked at him a weirdly. he sat at the island and went on his phone. i let the pasta sit for a little and walk over to get fruit. "babe, at least eat watermelon or something" i say pulling out water melon slices. "babe i said i'm not hungry" he said a little w attitude. "ok fine sorry" i say a little hurt by his response. i head back and get the pasta ready for everyone.
nick, chris, me,n matt are all sitting at the table eating lunch, well besides matt. "bro r u you my go have some, this is really good" chris said in-between bites. i smiled and looked at matt. "no, im not hungry, i'll have some later" he said his head leaning on his hand. i didn't want to say anything so i wouldn't get yelled at again.
-later- it was late now and i've kinda been a little occupied. just cleaning around matt's room since he's had not motivation too. he's just been laying in bed on his phone. i finally finished and layed down next to him. it was getting around dinner time so we went downstairs and nick and chris prepared food this time. i stood around the island w matt talking w chris and nick. "this smells so good" i say. i felt a nudge from matt and when i looked over he lost a little bit of balance... "shit sorry" he said standinf uo straight again. he snaked his arms around his stomach. "it's ok sweetheart" i say smiling. i could tell something was off, i just didn't know what..
nick and chris set the food on the table. matt had a plate infront of him. we all were eating while he just stared at his food. "matty r u going to eat it?" nick said rubbing his shoulder. "honestly i'm not hungry" he said once again holding his stomach. "matt u didn't eat anything today" i say concerned. "i did while u were cleaning, it's fine" he says. "what? i never saw u get up" i say. "y/n drop it, it's fine" he said. wow, he used my name. not babe or anything like that, he used my name. something was wrong. then there was awkward silence. "im going to excuse myself" matt said getting up. me nick and chris just looked at each other. he headed towards the couch until we heard a thud. "MATT?!" i say instantly getting up. chris and nick follow behind.
i run to the living room and see matt unconscious on the floor. "HOLY SHIT HE PASSED OUT" i yell going to the floor and putting his head on my lap. "shit what do we do?!" nick said. "let's put him on the couch and if he doesn't wake up in 20 we take him for the hospital" chris said. we lifted him to the couch. "he's really light" nick said sending us a look. "yeah, really light.." i say sending them the same look. i sat on the couch and layed his head on my lap. chris and nick in the floor waiting until he wakes up.
-5 minutes later- i started to feel movement. "guys he's up" i say relief washing over me. he put his hand on his head sitting up. "hey, babe take it easy u just passed out" nick says. "what?" matt said still holding his head. "guys get him water" i say. chris got up and went to get water. "r u ok" i asked rubbing his back. "yeah i'm ok" he said sitting back. "i'll give u two some privacy" nick said getting up. chris set the water down and left too.
"matt.. can i talk to u?" i asked. he looked at me and took a sip of water. "yeah" he said looking at me. "r u sure ur ok?" i say worry taking over. "i'm fine" he said bluntly. "matt im serious, i haven't seen u eat in like forever, and i wish i was exaggerating, ur sleeping really late, ur mood changed quickly, just talk to me please matt i'm worried, nick and chris are too" i say. matt stayed quiet and looked down. "if i tell u this, please don't get mad.." he says looking up at me with glossy eyes. "u can tell me" i say scooting a little closer. "i haven't aten anything in the past 4 days" he said quietly. i put and hand over my mouth preventing myself from saying anything. he looked up at me and i saw him frown. i pulled him into a tight hug and he sobbed into my arms. "shh it's ok matty, i'm here" i say repeatedly rubbing his back. after a few minutes he calms down and lifted his head up. "i haven't really eaten anything for like 3 months down" he said still in my arms. i frown even more. "baby.. why, what's wrong" i say softly. "idk i just feel like i can't eat to much or i'll be to fat" he said looking at his stomach. "baby, ur so beautiful, ur so so handsome, and it doesn't matter honey, ur beautiful in every shape and form. but this isn't healthy at all. if u wanted to, u could have done other things to help. but this isn't healthy u need food my love" i say snuggling more into him. "but-" he starts. "no buts matt, starting today i'm going to help u, we can go on a slow pase that's ok" i say kissing the top of his head. "thank u" he said kissing my cheek and hugging me. later i hanged him a small snack with water. he ate it at his own pace and finished it. he felt a little nauseous but it was all good.
-3 months later-
it's been a few months since whats happened. i've mostly been at there house with matt. making sure everything is ok. i come around the morning so i can be with matt while he ate. sometimes we all switched out with him, or all of us sat there with him. anything helped. so far he's been doing good, he was still under weight but what mattered was that he was eating. it was around lunch and i was sitting next to matt in bed. he was snuggled up to me and i kinda heard his stomach growl. "wanna go eat lunch" i asked kissing his forehead. he nodded and we for up to go to the kitchen. we sat there and i prepared us sandwiches. i handed him two and myself two. he started eating normally again. sometimes he needed a little push of support but overall he was getting better.
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i hope u guys like this! idk if this is accurate but if u struggle w this just know ur not alone and please contact someone or talk to someone. i'm always available to talk to. i think u can message on here i'm not sure. but u are so loved never forget that. i love u so much make sure u drink water and eat whatever u want bc ur beautiful <3
