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tw: name calling, n ed
y/n pov: these past few months it's been really rough on me. i posted on social media w matt for the first time 3 months ago. and it was all so good until now. it was just sad. every time i posted or something people would comment abt something, like oh she's to skinny, or oh she's lowkey fat,things abt my arms or how i dressed. it really made me just not want to post anymore. i haven't told matt bc i didn't want to make him feel bad. but i've been struggling to eat. one day i eat to little and the next i eat more than i should to the point i throw up sometimes.plus on top of that i feel like matt's been noticing which makes me feel horrible.
me and matt were in his room. "babe do u wanna make some food?" he asked. it was one of those days where i chose not to eat. i couldn't tell him that tho. "yeah sure, but for u bc i'm not hungry" i said lying to myself and him. "u sure baby? what abt a snack" he said hugging me from behind. "idk will see" i say giving him a fake smile. we head down stairs and he starts cooking the pasta. "wanna join me in a tiktok" he said setting it up. usually i say yes, but i remember how the fans act. that little group really does a number on me. "nah i'm tired" i say stirring the pasta. "r u ok" he asked shutting his phone off. "i'm fine" i say giving him another fake smile. "babe seriously, i think we need to talk" he said. that made my heart drop. i knew where this was going. "can we talk after the pasta is made" i say only looking at the pasta now. "yeah" he said taking over.
i sat down on the table. he brought the pasta and still served me some. "babe i-" i say. "u need to eat" he said. i sighed. "can we talk now" he said. "yeah, whats up" i say staring at the food. "baby, r u ok, i don't want to pressure u but i'm here for u, for anything i love u so much" he said holding my hand. i looked at him trying to fight back tears. he frowned and pulled me into his lap. i hugged him and i just let it out. i started sobbing and i felt him hug me tightly. "i'm here for u" he said kissing my tear stained cheek. just hearing those words made me feel better.
after a few moments i lifted my head up and decided to finally say what's been going on for the past couple of weeks. "i've been struggling with eating" i say wiping my tears. "why baby" he said moving my hair to behind my ear. "i've been getting these small section of comments saying these things abt me" i say. "what?! what r thay saying that made u feel like this" he said. "just things like i'm fat or to skinny which makes me feel like im just both and that i shouldn't eat or eat more than i should" i say looking down. "baby, ur beautiful, it doesn't matter the size ur stunning either way, and u deserve to eat as much as u want. it's not good to starve yourself and make h feel like this" he said wiping my tears that just kept rolling down. "did u eat today" he said tilting my head up. i looked into his eyes. i couldn't lie anymore. "no" i said quietly. "do u want the pasta or something else" he asked politely. "idk" i said resting my head on his shoulder. "how abt ice cream" he said smiling. i smiled a little thinking of it. "i have ur favorite" he said poking my stomach. i giggled a little. "u deserve baby, have some" he said and then kissed my cheek. "ok fine" i say. he picked me up and carried me to the counter. setting me there and him in between my legs. he brought out (ur fav ice cream flavor) and handed it to me. i was hesitant at first but he made me feel so confident into eating it. i knew it was just the start but i think he can really help me, and i feel so grateful.
——————————————————————————— i just wanted to say that u guys are literally beautiful just the way u are. u don't need to be skinny or anything like that. u can be gorgeous in anyway shape or form. i mean it from the bottom of my heart. i hope u guys are doing well. and if anyone does struggle with that please talk to someone. or just know that ur worth it. eat as much as u want bc ur a girlboss. ur beautiful and deserve it! 💗💗
hope this one was good for u guys. i'm open to more requests as always!
