mid july, 1995
june's eulogy
cedric adored orchids.
he told me this the first time he had given me a bouquet of orchids.
after the second triwizard task, he told me that if he died he would want his funeral to be decorated with orchids. i told him that he wouldn't die because he had so much to live, so much love to give.
i was wrong.
cedric was, extraordinary.
he was the best you could ever have, and i'm glad that even though it was for a short time, i got to have him all to myself.
he was the one who kept our little friend group together, fixing up every little fight, grey eyes glimmering as he watched our silly bickerings- the small smile of encouragements, the gentle push forward.
i remember it all.
it feels unlawful to refer to him in past tense, talk about the memory of him, as if that's all he was.
he was the kindest one of us all, a true hufflepuff if i might say, he had this fiery passion, and a will to fight for the things he truly believes in.
he was the one who stood up for the ones who couldn't, the only one with actual patience. out of all of us gathered here, he was the only one who had it in him to change the world for the better.
but not anymore.
cedric, i miss you. i miss you everyday, and i miss you more with every passing second.
i remember every time we used to say goodbye when we were forced to part.
we would hold each other in a tight embrace, not daring to let go in fear that we might not be able to do it again.
i don't want to let go right now ced, i'm holding on to all the memories i have of you as if they're the only thing which has the power to make me go on a little further.
i really, really don't want to say goodbye.
this one means forever.
