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Ran's POV

"I might go home late, eat dinner without me" i reminded before hanging up my phone

I grabbed my coat and got ready to meet him up in the same place last night

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When i arrived, he's already there. Having a dessert at the table and drinks

I approached him who's making sound on the table by his fingers

"Hey" i said calmly as i sat down in front of him

"Good evening, here. My treat" he uttered, pushing lightly the dessert on the table

"uh... thanks" i awkwardly said

It was the same dessert i ordered last night, and the drinks too

"You seems in the good mood?" I said, noticing how rare it was

"'Cause my therapist said I'm doing great. I can't wait to show up with him without hurting him anymore" he explained, averting his gaze out of embarrassment

Out of curiosity, i feel like i wanna ask him why did he starts taking drugs before

"May i know the reason why did you become a drug addict back then?" I asked straightforwardly as i took a sip on my drink

he stay silent for a seconds but then, he took a deep breath and got ready to give me an answer

"Because of trauma. I had a worst past that i really wanted to forget but its hard so... i used illegal pills" he uttered, i didn't say anything and just watched him while continue drinking

"How does it feel?" I asked, resting my back on the glass wall while my arm was resting on the table

"from the word 'addicting' its commonly brings you pleasure. It's weird and i lose control but it somehow made me feel relieve" he explained

"what's your trauma then?" I added but this time he didn't give me a response anymore

I guess i talk too much...

"Sorry you can ignore that one"

"Its kinda uncomfortable but i'll tell you anyway" he suddenly said, making me look at him

"I was a neglected child who doesn't belong to anyone's family. I'm lack of parent's attention. My brother always blame me for the things i never did. I have a younger sister who lied on my friend, causing him to hurt me and give me a scar that reminds me of him..."

I was stunned by those words, i feel like my guilt worsen, hearing his voice slowly shaking

"t-there's three of us. And as usual, I'm always the one who feel left out... And-"

"stop, you can stop now" i cut his words as he looked up and shot his gaze on me

"Haru is different..."

Rindou's words pop up in my mind the more i stare at his face

So... this is the reason why he want him to change?

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