sooo i am really sad today but i will be okay and i keep hearing jaden and joshs voice in my head saying i am fat and ugly so i havent ate a thing at all even when i was with my dad i didnt eat i would always throw it up and i am sorry guess i have bad news while i was down there i wasnt sober i was drinking and smoked and just not being sober but i took care of kash so well and i miss both of my babies but i have gotten skinner and less healthy and my little side has gottan more mean and fussy and i dont what to do okay i am mess and i hate it
