brooo this is one of the hardest things i have ever had to deal with along with a bunch of other shit... like in my mind all day i think i wanna get high, i need weed, pills, just one more time. i fucking hate my body and brain but its whatever i am tired of caring i am and i am sorry for the ones i hurt and i am sorry to all my friends that have to put up with my bullshit. i just want to be fucking normal its so sad whats goes on in my brain. its just the drugs and drinks seem to make those thoughts go away yeah i know its bad but i just dont know what to do anymore...
