crush culture| billie eilish

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ashley pov:

i stared intently at billie as she talked in her dumb baby voice to aj in her lap.

i let out an audible laugh when billie basically mumbled something inaudible and aj started fussing.

"no no! i'm just kidding!" billie said, trying to prevent him from crying.

i just stared at them and waited for billie to ask for help.

"ashley!" billie yelled.

i sighed and hopped off the counter to go help billie.
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"billie! please i'm just trying to help!" i spoke.
"i don't fucking need your help!" billie snapped.

i was somewhat taken aback by the way billie got in my face and yelled.

me and billie stared at each other while maggie stared at the both of us.

"okay." i said.
"wait-baby." billie said, going to grab my arm.

i turned around and took a step closer so that we were nearly touching noses.

"you said you didn't want my help. so fine. i'll go home, and take care of our son. and when your finally ready to grow a pair and ask me for some help. you can call me." i explained.

maggie began scolding billie while i packed up my things in the green room and grabbed aj.

"how are you even gonna get home?" billie questioned.
"i'll find a flight." i said.
"where are you gonna sleep? it's like 11 pm." billie said.

i sighed while putting a small blanket around aj and turned to face the door.

"i go find a fucking hotel." i replied dryly.

billie looked as if she was about to cry when finneas opened the door for me to leave.

"at least let me pay for it." finneas said while following me out the door.

i shook my head no and gave him a side hug before ordering an uber and leaving the venue, billie and her family in the green room.
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i entered the hotel room and placed aj carefully onto the bed and took his bag off my shoulder and then pulled my dead phone out of my pocket and placed it onto a charger.

aj was still very much asleep and i took this as an opportunity to take a shower and wash my hair.
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as soon as i stepped out of my shower i groaned when i heard aj crying and wrapped a towel around my body.

his crying seemed to calm down as soon as i came into his view.

"god your so needy." i said and picked him up.

his eyes stared into the side of my face as i carried him into the bathroom with me.

i really didn't feel like getting into real clothes so i slipped on a pair of underwear and a t-shirt, more specifically one of billie's.

i felt bad for leaving her earlier but i wasn't about to make billie the victim because she basically did this to herself.

she's been not only distant but very sensitive and bitch lately. and i understand that it's mostly from the stress of tour but i didn't want to put up with her shit if i was fully capable of taking care of our son by myself and giving her the space she needs.

i carried aj back into the room and placed him back onto the bed before checking my phone.

billie had called and texted me like a thousand times so i decided on not trying to start something in the middle of the night when she has a show tomorrow so i texted her and got into bed.