relapse

part 1

!trigger warning!

a green haired boy sat on the bathroom floor. his sleeve rolled up, revealing faded scars.

a razor was held between his fingers, his eyes stuck on the shiny object.

"no..." his voice was quiet and soft. the others in the dorm were asleep, it was past 12 and he had sat in the bathroom for hours staring idly at the razor in his hand.

"no..not today.." he muttered. pulling his sleeve down and hiding the blade where he knew no one would find it, it wasn't like anybody knew to search for anything.

he stood in front of the mirror, the eye bags under his eyes looking darker than usual. dried up tear streaks going down his cheeks. his head hurt since he'd been sobbing quietly just minutes ago.

a sigh left his mouth as he turned on the water and splashed water on his face a few times before turning it off.

droplets of water ran down his face.

he had promised his mother he would stop hurting himself.

lately it had been hard to keep that promise.

"what are you doing?"

of course it was. his life was shit, but he still continued to venture outside the school grounds when the students were allowed to.

pain.

midoriya grabbed the towel that hung beside the sink, bringing it up to his face and burying his face into the white towel. it smelled nice.

after drying his face, the boy set the towel down and trudged out of the bathroom after shutting the lights off and going to his room.

"i promised..." he whispered as he shut the door behind him and got into bed.

midoriya stared at the ceiling in complete silence. his body feeling heavy. he felt numb.

his eyes shut.

tomorrow's another day.