he was having another one of those days.
where he stayed in bed, refusing to leave cause it was the only thing that comforted him.
his phone lit upon his face in the somewhat dim lit room. it was dark due to having kept the curtains drawn, it was 12 pm and he hadn't yet been called down for lunch.
not like he was gonna go eat if they eventually would.
he watched videos. no longer feeling the same excitement he felt as a child while doing so.
his mentor, all might, came into frame laughing. a bystander pointing out his laughing, which in truth, was pretty funny. but midoriya hadn't laughed like usual. he was quiet, a frown placing itself on his face.
but midoriya kept his focus on the fire behind his favourite hero/mentor.
"it's fine now. why?" midoriya muttered quietly in a dull tone, having memorized the words.
midoriya's smile widened and his eyes glowed as those words were said.
"because i am here." midoriya again muttered, this time trying to sound happy and mighty.
the little green haired boy clenched his all might figure and forever kept his green eyes on the man on the screen, waiting for the exact same moment to replay.
midoriya turned his phone off and put it underneath his pillow, he turned and was now facing the wall.
a sigh left his mouth.
tears were beginning to pool up as memories. happy memories, began to flood his mind.
where did that happy boy go? why did he leave?
questions. memories. that little voice, swarmed his mind. he clenched his eyes shut, repeating stop it as he held his head.
knock knock!
midoriya gasped, sitting up to face his door.
"midoriya? lunch is ready."
"i'm not hungry right now! i'll eat later!" midoriya said, listening closely. "oh. alright then, we'll save a plate for you." midoriya thanked kaminari and listened as his footsteps retreated.
a relieved sigh left midoriya's mouth as he lied back down, pulling the blanket over his head.
he shut his eyes.
he was tired.
"go to bed sweetie, i'll be here tomorrow. goodnight, love you."
he smiled lightly and fell asleep.
YOU ARE READING
relapse
FanfictionTHIS IS ALL JUST A BIG WARNING "i try my best to keep myself from relapsing, but each passing day, it gets harder." ~*~ [relapse, depression, self-harm]
