Lucifer

28. Feeling Stressed

We're on our way to the party and I'm looking out the window watching cars and buildings. He isn't saying anything to me and I don't want to say anything either.

My phone starts ringing and immediately my mind flashes on Daniel and Tina. I take it from my bag but it's Donald calling.

"Hello" I answer.

"Hey Christina. How are you doing?"

"I'm alright thanks for asking? How about you?"

"I'm actually doing great, but I was wondering if we could get lunch together tomorrow" I look at Lucifer and his eyes are glued to the road.

"Ah. Where?"

"A new place recently opened and I would like to take you there. It would be a surprise" I see Lucifer glance at me. Why am I looking at him though?

"Can I get back to you on that?"

"Ah yeah of course"

"Thanks" I hung up. Donald is a really hot and handsome guy. He seems nice too, but I need to be sure that I want to go out with him before saying yes.

"He seems like a nice guy" What? I am really surprised by what Lucifer just said.

"Do you have super hearing?" And I mean that literally.

"The car is quiet and your phone volume seems to be at maximum" Oh I need to fix that. So he heard my whole conversation.

"Why haven't you told him yes if you don't mind me asking?"

"That's none of your business" I stretch my hand and turn on the radio. I dont want this silence anymore it's getting uncomfortable for me. He wasn't saying anything to me all along and that's what he's asking.

One look at his face and I immediately feel guilty seeing a bit of hurt for a second before he changed it. I didn't have to react like that, but it's really none of his business.

Listening to this song is really making me feel more for him. Why did I even turn this damn thing on? I quickly turn it off.

I look at him. I still think I shouldn't have been so harsh.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have answered you like that"

"Miss G-" He stops.

"-Christina...I don't really know how to open up to people, it's not something I do at all. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable around me so I'm trying" He stretch his left hand and turn the radio back on. He did not wait for my response which means he's done talking.

Damn.

This is what I want and I'm pushing him away. Honestly, I'm just upset but it's not with him. It's like all of a sudden Daniel and Tina stopped caring about me. I need to call them, but after I'm out of this vehicle.

I can't get you out of my mind. You're driving me crazy.

I look at him. He's looking at the road. I'm now wondering if he really just said that verbally or...of course. He thought about it he did, of course he did.

Then why don't you just say it?

Crap I see a reaction. I turn the radio off.

"Did you just thought about me?" I told myself before that he's not the type of man I wanna be with and now I think I like him. No I know that I like him now that I've really thought about it. Maybe that's why I couldn't tell Donald yes. It could also be the reason he asked me why I didn't say yes because he wanted to know if it's because I like him. Maybe I'm just over thinking. If my response was different I wouldn't have told him why I didn't say yes.