Lucifer

38. This Man Damn

"I'm not afraid of becoming my father. I'm old enough to know that sometimes relationships doesn't work out. At first I was upset with him, but not anymore. It's just what it is. I was just surprised that you knew about it. I thought that was never going to resurfaced" I just keep looking at him. I didn't think he'd be the first to start this conversation.

"Not that I wouldn't have told you, but when I'm ready" Did I just heard right? He looks at me for a few seconds as if he doesn't recognize his own words.

I don't know what to say.

"It just brought back a few bad memories, but I'm alright. Their marriage was an arranged one so he never really loved her. Financially we were alright he made sure of that, but it didn't hurt any less growing up without him"

Miss Leona didn't mentioned the marriage arrangement part. I guess there's always 2 sides to a story.

I'm really surprised that he would call me here to just explain himself. He makes me feel as if I am important to him.

"I'm sorry for walking out on you" How long is it going to take me to get used to him being so open and apologetic?

I'm starting to think that it's not right to keep seeing someone the same way that you've encountered them the first time. People can evolve...and I think he is evolving.

"I-It's ok" He cracks a small smile, but it quickly disappears. I know I've said it before, but his smile is angelic. I can see that he's still not comfortable because he stops smiling. Gosh he needs to just loosen up.

I just want to know something.

"Did he not keep in touch with you specifically?"

"Barely. It doesn't matter now though. He's alright and I'm well alright" It's very good to hear that he's moved on from all that. I hear sincerity in his voice too.

"I wasn't trying to say you're going to become him. I only wanted to know if you were afraid of doing the same thing he did. I'm sorry too" What I just said probably doesn't make sense.

"You mean jealous" I look at him a little shock.

"What? No" I thought he was going to say something else. Seriously?

"You don't need to explain things to me for me to know" I lean back on the chair putting on a brave face.

But why would he rub the fact that he was with another woman in my face. Is that what he wants me to think? Does he like it when I get jealous?

Did he actually slept with her? But of course I'm not going to just ask him that.

When I think about it, I'm not the only jealous one here. When Harrison came the other day he blurted out that we needed to go home.

Of course...

...He was jealous. He wanted Harrison to think that we were together so he wouldn't pursue me.

It could probably be the reason why he slept with me. I'm almost sure I mentioned Harrison's name that night. He probably wanted to have me before him, or before any other man.

I've never seen him smile with anyone, not even his associates, it's either nods or his words, but never the smile. Maybe I've seen a smirk, but I don't recall seeing a genuine smile, like the ones he shoots at me.

"I guess I can now read you too" I smile. He cocks an eyebrow.

"Meaning?"

"Oh nothing" I get serious remembering something.

"Harrison knew it was me who started that whole thing at the party" His expression changes to a serious one.

"I know. I already spoke to him"