Finding My Second Swan

INTRODUCTION

~ Nathan Harriott ~
~ I hate the world and I still want her ~

They say that when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Well, I'm still waiting for the lemons. I'm still waiting for my time. I thought I'd found it with Paige, but sadly, she wasn't the one. She left me without a word. I don't even know where she is. It's like, she disappeared off the face of the earth.
The next day after those dickheads crashed into her room, I went back. I had to know what was happening, but Kayne. The fucker said she already left to clear her head.
Come the fuck on! I know for a fact she was getting better. Every damn time we were together, I could see it. I was making her fall for me, just as I was with her. We were falling in love. I felt it. We both did. Whether she knew it or not, it was happening.
Every time we got together, it was perfect. Lying in bed, by her side, looking into each other's eyes was blissful. We were happy, breathing, living and laughing. I made her smile, but that was months ago now. And still, I don't know where she is, what she's doing, or who she's with. Hell, I don't know if she's still in the UK, or alive.
Nobody's said anything. Even Mars tried to help me by questioning Kayne. It's because he was the last to see her.
I remember Paige said, it was too dangerous. Being with her was too dangerous and shit was going on. There were things she couldn't tell me.
The day I saw her scars peeking out from the top of her towel, I asked about them. She said it's better I don't know. I'm not sure who the better was for, but seeing those scars also screamed "inner scars". A lot more than losing her husband, more than wanting to kill herself at every turn. Paige said she died before he did when she lost their baby. The situation she was in that caused her to lose her baby, she died.
The day she agreed to be mine, she said we couldn't tell anyone. Nobody could know about us. It was too dangerous. I had no clue why, but I didn't care. I was with her and that's all I wanted.
When my sister returned home, I should've been there for her, but she had mum. After she found Zealous again, things slowly began changing. She's getting on with things, and she's working again, so that's a bonus. Even Linc's settled in school after making a few new friends.

Everybody's moving on, except me. I'm still stuck in a bottomless pit of anger. I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm just lost...