Circle

All by yourself

Yoongi entered your house.
You had not left a single step after the funeral. You refused to eat. Stop attending your university. Stop showing up at work. Yoongi already asks Kath to fill your place with someone else for the time being.

Mr Jeon was also giving you some time to mourn. But clearly you were not going to do anything with your life anytime soon. You were laying down lifelessly on your bed.Staring at the empty ceiling. You did not know what time or day was now.Everything was moving slowly for you.

"You haven't eaten." The food that he sent this morning was still on the table with your untouched dinner last night, "Stop doing this." Yoongi pulled you from your bed. He dragged you to the living room.

Opening the food container. Now he found you did not touch a single thing when he was not around. He was glaring at his people.

"Eat.." He placed the spoon in front of your mouth, encouraging you to open them. "I'm not hungry.." Your voice was hoarse.Your throat was dry.

"Eat." He repeated.

Your eyes were trailing on his face. Why is he here? Why..he is still here? Everyone already left you, why was he still here..The pain in your chest was making your stomach hurt. Like they knew.

"You should not be here, Yoongs.." No one should be with you anymore. Take them all, you do not want to feel like losing another person.

"I will be wherever I want to be. Now eat something." He was feeding you patiently.

"I'm full.." You pushed his hand with the strength you had left. You were weak..

"You barely eat two scoops." He complained.

"I don't wanna eat anymore..." You said faintly, you only want to lie down.

"Why are you torturing yourself? He was already dead, you could not retrieve him even if you did this." He snorted. Not to be harsh but to bring your logic back.

"I.. I don't deserve this life.."

"Who could be as worthy as you?" The most hardworking girl he had ever known. Working two times a day and still ace in your study.

"I wanna die too.." Your mind was muddled. Yoongi bit his inside mouth, it was harder than he thought.

"Give me a bucket of cold water." He asked his man. He left someone with you every time he could not be here. To prevent you from doing something stupid. The guy left for ten minutes, but he came back at Yoongi's request.

"Put it here.." He signed the guy to put them in front of you, "Now leave."

"Young master." He was worried about what Yoongi might do to you.

"Leave." Did he have time to argue now?You saw your reflection in the water. It did not look good. She looked ugly, her hair was a mess. Her lips were chapped and her eyes were staring back. She was miserable.

"Go ahead, you wanna die.. Put your head inside the water. I will hold them if you struggle to come out later.." He crossed his arms. If you wanna die, he will grant that too.

The faster the better. You bet the pain will be less than what you were feeling now.You dipped your head inside the water. Yoongi did not think you would really do it. He waited for you to give up, but seemed like you were more stubborn than he expected. You did not struggle and your body just slumped down.

"Tch, she has already lost her mind!" Yoongi yanked you out, you were not breathing anymore. He laid you down on the floor, performing CPR he learnt a long time ago.You still did not breathe. His people came in hearing Yoongi scream out.

"Call an ambulance!"

"Y.. Young master!"

"Wake up!!!" He pressed on your chest several times again.You choked out the water. Coughing, taking as many breaths as you can. Yoongi sighed in relief, he hugged you tightly, "I think i've lost you.."

You clutched to him, crying, "I don't wanna die." Because before you lost consciousness, you thought of things you wanna do with your life. Even if you were alone, you still wanna live. You want to graduate, you want to live your life the fullest. And maybe one day. There will be someone for you too. Until then, you should live well.. Your life was precious..

"Stupid girl." Yoongi brought you to the hospital. You told him you were okay but he insisted. He told the nurse to help you clean yourself. Now you are resting in a hospital bed.Yoongi just takes phone calls. He checked if you were sleeping or not.

"Thank you.."

"For almost killing you? You are welcome." He snorted. His heart jumped out from his chest when he found you were not breathing for long time. He wanna teach you one or two lessons, but seeing you smile for the first time after so many days. He let it slide.

"Can you help me to get some food.. I'm hungry.." Now you felt stupid for not eating.

"Alright.." He personally came out to buy your food. Some warm soup from his favorite restaurant. To nourish you. You ate a lot this time. Whole lot.

"Eat slowly. Nobody is taking them from you."He wiped the corner of your mouth."I'm very hungry.." Yoongi rubbed your head.

"Very good. Stay here for one more night. I will pick you up tomorrow." He had to go somewhere. And he had been staying at your place so many nights. He could not sleep on that small couch. His back hurt.

"You won't stay?" You were surprised to hear yourself, why would he stay with you? Didn't you have enough difficulties for him?

"It's okay. I will go back on my own." You quickly added.

"Didn't your ears work? I said I will pick you up. You better be here when I arrive." He was scared. You tugged his sleeves, "What?" He could get used to this clingy attitude.

"Thank you.. you arranged my dad's funeral.. I owe you.." You owed him. Forever, you owed him. You did not know how you will repay him in the future. But now you were really grateful. When the light was taken out from your life. His darkness surrounded you. At the time you were too tired to see that.

"Tch." He did not know what to say, "I'll head back first." You watched him leave.Yoongi was kind too... But maybe you shouldn't be too attached to him.. —