An Unbreakable Love

Chp.19 'I am here '

Author's note:

The story will continue to be in Hana's POV until I write Jimin's.

Happy reading...

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The sky is very cloudy as if it is ready to pour like anything. Cool breeze and silence is the only thing surrounding us. The whole Park family is in the graveyard to bury Granny's body. The father is chanting some holy words and we all are standing with nothing but silence and grief. Mark and Uncle came as soon as they heard of the news. They both were equally shocked and sad about Granny's death. Mark cried a lot when he saw her body. Jimin hugged him and patted his back, trying to console him. He was trying to be strong but I know he needs someone to do the same to him.

Jimin is standing beside me looking blankly at Granny's body. He has been silent since he heard the news. His face is devoid of any emotion. I didn't see him shed tears. I only saw a teardrop leaving his eyes when he sat near her body in her room. That's it.

Everything is a mess. He is a mess but really good at hiding it, just like me. The difference is that he is hiding his emotions and I am hiding an untold truth, something only I know.

I still can't believe that Granny knew the whole truth. I get tears in my eyes whenever I think about it. I was shocked when I read the whole letter. We both were busy lying but she already knew the truth. I was and am ashamed of myself for lying since the beginning.

Please don't leave Jimin.

These words are not ready to leave my mind. 

Jimin is all alone now. The only person he truly loved and cared about is no more. What can be more devastating than this?

I decided what I want to do. I will not leave him alone. He might not be a good human being but he is a human. Someone with feelings. No one can understand the feeling of being lonely more than I do. I will be with him. I will fulfil Granny's last wish.

The father finished with his prayers and the body is buried in the ground. I look at Jimin. He is just there physically, looking at the place where the body is buried with blank eyes. I go near him and put my hand on his arm telling him that he is not alone. I am here with him. As soon as he feels my hand he looks at my side for a few seconds and let's out a slow breath.

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We came home after the burial. Jimin's friends came too, each one trying to make him feel as better as they can. When they told him to take care of himself he just nodded his head and hugged them. Their faces showed sadness and care. They were really sad for their friend. We bid our goodbyes and the whole ride to the house was silent.

The clock shows the time. 8:55 pm. The maids told me that the dinner is ready. I sat at the dinner table waiting for Jimin to come downstairs but he didn't. I looked at his room's door but it is closed. 

Give him some alone time, a voice in my head said. Right. He definitely needs some.

I started eating dinner glancing at Jimin's room from time to time.

The maids left and I am in my room, lying on the bed while staring at the ceiling. Jimin didn't come to have dinner. I felt like going into his room and calling him but controlled myself. He has told me to not enter his room too and I shouldn't disturb him.

I tried sleeping but I was far away from that. I am just not able to sleep. I tossed around for some time wishing that I could sleep but soon felt the need to have some water. I got up and reached for the jar on the nightstand but it was empty. Pushing off the covers, I started going towards the kitchen.

While going downstairs, I passed by  Jimin's bedroom. The door was slightly open. I tried to peek through the gap to see if he was ok or not but it was dark so I couldn't see much. I  continued walking towards the kitchen and drank a glass of water. Did Jimin have dinner? I opened the fridge and all the food was there, untouched. He didn't. Closing the fridge door with a sigh, I headed towards my room.

While going, I heard some noise coming from Jimin's room. The noise felt like some whimpers.

Should I go inside? What if something happened to Jimin? 

I pushed the door slightly and enter the room. The whole room was dark. Moonlight was the only source of light and I could see a body on the bed. Jimin. I went closer to his side. He was holding the cover in his fists, eyebrows furrowed. His face was completely opposite from the one I saw on the plane. It was not peaceful but filled with fear. As if he was having a nightmare.

His body jerked a little and slow whimpers were leaving his lips. He was shaking his head and muttering something in a low voice.

I sat on his side and put my hand on his head.

" No...No.. please.." He was saying this. His body was shaking a little. Tears started forming in the back of my eyes but I can't cry right now. I don't even know why I was feeling like this but I was not able to see him like this. In pain.

" Jimin..." I called him in a soft tone.

" Hey... it's okay... it's okay" I started caressing his hair slowly. 

" No don't leave me..." He said in a desperate tone that made my heart ache.

" I am not going anywhere ok... I am here. .." 

I moved a little closer and continued caressing his hair while whispering some sweet words to him. All the time, I was just looking at his face. He was looking like a kid who is being chased by some demon in his dream and someone left him alone. The look on his face did something to me, something I can't exactly point at.

The whimpers stopped after some time. He was breathing normally and looked like the nightmare was over. I just continued patting his head. I felt like hugging him close...I don't know why but I did.

I stopped caressing his head and bent towards his face. Then I did something I never imagined I would do. I kissed him on the forehead and let my lips linger there for some time. 

I held his hand softly and kissed it too. Don't know what's wrong with me but I couldn't help myself. I want to join him on the bed, pull him towards my chest and continue caressing him but I know that I will be crossing my limits.

Why am I feeling like this toward him? What is wrong with me? 

I only know one thing, whatever I am feeling or have started to feel for him should be stopped. Even if I continue this, it is going to be one-sided. If I continue feeling like this, I will fall deep into a pit from which I won't be able to handle myself. Something that will break my heart and I am not ready for another heartbreak.

                                                                                x-x-x

Hiiiieee

Finally here with a new chapter. Sorry for posting so late.

Talking about the chapter, I did my best. Hope it reaches your expectations. If it doesn't, pls feel free to comment but no hate comments pls. 

Thank you for reading. I will post another chapter soon.

Thank you for being patient. LOVES YOU!!

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