Above our heads

Part 11

I had some kind of monstrous hole in my chest that still wouldn't heal. I abandoned the institute and began to disappear again at the General. She stayed at home alone and it suited me. I was tired of Her talking, I wanted silence.

Somehow we agreed to meet with Her at the Generalka. When She came, I was already very drunk. There was a girl sitting on my lap whose name I didn't even remember. One of my hands was on Her hip and the other on her chest. She periodically kissed me on the neck. I was having fun and I couldn't figure out why She didn't like it.

She stood up against me, lit a cigarette. She looked at me calmly. The girl giggled:

- And who is it?

I held her closer to me:

- This is my friend...

She turned around and left. Or rather, she tried to leave. I caught Her on the way out of the yard, grabbing her by the hand:

- Are you going somewhere?

She turned around, her eyes blazing:

- We'll talk in the morning when you sober up!

- No, now!

She screamed:

- About what? About this girl or about the fact that you haven't spent the night at home for a week?!

I wanted to fuck Her right here. It turned me on terribly when She was angry. I tried to pin Her against a tree and lift up her skirt, but she angrily pushed me away. I swayed, but I stayed on my feet. He grinned and tried to put his hand on Her chest:

- Do you want to be tougher?

- Stop it! I'm not one of your girls!

I, having lost my temper, banged my fist on a tree:

- And who are you to me?!

She shuddered, closed her eyes:

- I can't do this anymore...

I yelled:

- So go away! What do you want from me?! I can't give you anything anymore!!!

She took her hands away from her face: her eyes were wet. She desperately tried to hug me, but I dodged and almost fell.

- What's going on with you? Please explain to me...

I put my hands in my pockets:

- There's nothing to talk about...

She turned around and left. I did not stop Her, but returned to the General. I sat down on a bench and lit a cigarette. He snatched the glass from Stas and finished it. I was already cooling down, but I was sure that I was right as always. The girl tried to sit on my lap again, but I pushed her hard and she flopped on her ass.

She screamed:

- Are you a complete asshole?! Sick!

I laughed:

- Fuck off, you fucking whore!

She jumped up and tried to scratch my face, but I grabbed her hands and squeezed hard. There was a lot of dope in me:

- I said fuck off!

Trofimych came up and pulled this mad cat away from me, sat down next to me:

- What are you doing, Demon? Are you completely out of your mind?

I pushed him in the chest:

- Fuck off! None of your business!

He, having become angry, grabbed me by the jacket:

- No, mine! I'm your only friend and I'm telling you that you're doing shit!

I pushed him in the chest:

- Fuck off!

Stas shouted:

- Demon, let's go drink! Well, these women!

Trofimych slapped me on the shoulder:

- Come on, friend, drink until you die!

I attacked him, we fell off the bench. I hit him a couple of times in the face:

- I didn't ask you to save me! Maybe I wanted to die!

Then I remember his fist flying into my face, and then silence