The Mangekyou to my Sharingan (Itakashi)

Chapter 27

Sasuke's POV

Itachi died.

My brother is dead.

The person I loved more than anyone is dead.

I'm not sure how to process all of that...

I'm not sure I even want to deal with this.

And then he left this stupid crow and his stupid letter, without any instructions on how to get over his death even though I carry this weight over my shoulders...

I just feel so guilty... maybe I could've and should've been a better younger brother.

How do I move on from this?

How do I go back to my day-to-day life with my girlfriend and my friends?

I haven't even spoken to Sakura... I know she comes every day to clean and make food, but I haven't physically talked to her.

I know she misses me, but I don't have the strength or courage to face her.

I just feel like in a way I've wronged her too. I just put this big burden on her without even asking if she was okay. She was there when he died, yet I treat her as if she doesn't feel any sadness. I'm such a shitty boyfriend.

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Sakura: Sasuke-kun? Are you still in bed? I won't disturb you, I'm just here to restock the fridge, and then I'll stop by later and make you some curry.

I know she's the woman I love... I know she's the person I'm going to marry and have kids with... but right now she's so fucking annoying.

I just want her to disappear.

Sasuke: Go home, you're beginning to annoy me with your presence, just leave and never come back, can't you see I want to be alone. 

Sakura: S-Sasuke-kun? A-Are you o-ok-

*SLAM*

Without me even realizing my hand slammed against the wall, startling Sakura. 

Damn it... 

Sasuke: I said to go fucking home. If I wanted to be with you, I would, but looking at you so pathetically is so fucking annoying. You're so fucking useless. Just give it a rest already seriously. 

Sakura: *faint crying* You're the pathetic one here, if you want to rot in self-pity on your own so be it, I will no longer be your girlfriend and I will no longer want to bear the Uchiha crest. You're the pathetic one, taking out all your pain at me as if I did something wrong. Baka... i shouldn't have to put with this shit. 

I could hear the pain in her voice... these aren't the things I want to say to her... I want to tell her I love her, yet all this word vomit is coming out and I can't stop.

Sasuke: I never needed you... I can always find someone to help revive my clan like Ino or Karin, you were just the easy opt-

*Slap*

Sakura: Stop saying things you don't fucking mean. I know if I were to leave right now, you'd hate yourself even more. I PROMISED ITACHI... I promised I would look after you and continue to love you, so just shut up and let me take care of you, Sasuke. Do you think you're the only one who is struggling to hold on? You may be brothers, but don't you dare think that you're the only one who loved him.

As Sakura said her final words, my lips quickly reached hers... she knew exactly what to say and I have never been more in love.

I wouldn't have made it this far without her.