Features || Junhan

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As people all stood in silence in lines, forming a clear pathway for Nari's coffin to safely get into the car, I followed behind the large grey coffin holding Nari's favourite electric guitar, Gaon holding her other one. The others were holding beautiful bouqets of colourful flowers.
Yuki was infront of the coffin, holding a wooden sign with Han Nari engraved into it while the rest held photos of Nari.

As the people who were lifting Nari's coffin put her in the trunk of the funeral car, everyone broke down once they shut the bootdoor closed. We then had a few minutes of silence togethr for Nari.
"Hyeongjun, it's alright to cry." A boy smiles weakly as he wraps an arm around my shoulder. "I'm Han Namun, Nari's little brother."

"Hi." I say coldly, trying to hold my tears back as I look at her guitar in my arms. It was the one she bought when we went to the guitar shop together.
"Nari told me all about you, she said she really loved you." Namun then sughs as tears begin to slowly descend from his eyes, then looking at me as I looked at him with wide eyes. I wish she told me that sooner.. "Thank you for taking good care of my noona."

"Come here." I mumble as I pull the tall boy into a hug, resting his head on my shoulder as he then broke down.

Looking around as I comforted the boy, I notice that there were other idols attending her funeral such as; Stray Kids, Itzy, Twice, Day6, BTS, Seventeen, TXT, Enhypen and others. I was also guessing the other people were Nari's friends and family.. and of course there were cameras taking photos of every moment.
The funeral was a closed casket funeral, so I couldn't even see Nari for one last time. There were no cameras permitted inside as the service was on, so all medias had to wait outside as the coffin was being brought out.

Namun then breaks the hug as he hears his mother calling for him. He thanks me as he sulks his way to his mother who was talking with someone.

"Junhan, you're crying." Gunil points out as he wipes my cheeks. I didn't even notice. I push the boy away slightly as I hide my face from the cameras.
"This is a first time I'm seeing him cry, to be honest." Chunja laughs weakly as he wipes her red nose with a tissue. "Thank you guys so much for attending the funeral. We'll be going to the burial site on the bus soon."

"On the seats will be a flower you can throw onto Nari's coffin when she's lowered into the ground." Aera then joins us with red and puffy eyes as she then fixes her hair now black hair.
"You dyed your hair black?" Jungsu asks. Aera nods slowly.
"I mainly dyed my hair rose pink because Nari said it would look good on me, but now that she's gone, I don't want it anymore. It will just keep on making me sad." She sighs as she wipes her tears.

"Jooyeon is really breaking down, isn't he?" Chunja points out the crying boy being comforted by YunYun who was also crying.

"Junhan, I'm really sorry but this has been bothering me for weeks now." Aera then starts as more tears go down her cheeks. "Nari has liked you ever since you guys bumped into each other in the halls that one day. When Xdinary Heroes met Celestial Nari was really nervous and then when she learnt that you were in the group she wanted to spend time with you, so she asked me what to do and I just said to be herself amd be confident but she was a bit too confident around you. Then when you guys asked her to be your composer she was really happy because she would be seeing you more often." I was stunned and completely frozen.

"I also know about the rooftop incident. You were looking for Nari so you came to us and asked and the others said they didn't know but Nari would most likely be in her studio or on the rooftop because she really likes going there. I said I woukd help you by going to her studio while you went to the rooftop. I am so glad you got to the rooftop in time. You saved her from committing suicide." Aera then wraps her arms around me as she breaks down. I then hug her back as tears went down.

"Hyeongjun, thank you so fucking much. I'm serious. Nari was diagnosed with deep depression a long time ago and Celestial had slight issues with making her a bit more happir but we eventually broke the wall but she was still very depressed. Then you came and made her really happy. I can't thank you enough. You made our Nari happier then she could ever be. She loved you so much but she knew yous couldn't date because yous are in the same company and you have a dating ban so she tried to loose her feelings by distancing from you but she just couldn't! Every night she would tell me how much she loved you and I just wanted to tell you but I couldn't! She loved your features so much, Hyeongjun, so fucking much! Your eyes, your face structure, your beauty mark, your faint freckles, everything! She loved your features."

Aera then looks at me as she pulls me down to her level, cupping my cheeks as she made me look at her.
"Han Nari loved you so much!"

"And I will forever love her too."