Features || Junhan

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Finishing the song as I drop my shoulders as I looked upon the large crowd of our fans, Stars. Them shaking their cresent moon lightstick around with star charms on the inside which make a shaking sound.

This is my last showcase, and I have just sang the last line of my solo song, All My Friends Are Turning Blue. The girls all leave their instrument as they all then hug me tightly, tears escaping their eyes.
I slide my guitar to my back as I hug them for the first time in a while, comforting them all, especially YunYun who was bawling her eyes out.

I pry them off of me as I hold my tears back, us forming a line with me infront of the mic.

"Thank you everyone for being here. It may be a bit confusing why everyone is crying, but it is because I am going on a hiatus." I say with a shakey breath. "A few months ago, I was diagnosed with a heart disease called Coronary Heart Disease. Doctors found out it was because I have a high blood pressure and was because I was drinking a lot at rhat time when it was our vacation. I kept on overworking myself which led me to stress. My manager kept on telling me to stop working for a bit, but being the stubborn self I was, I ignored him."

I then bite my lip harshly as I turn around, then letting the tears fall as I begin to shake. This was my first time crying infront of fans. Ever since debut, I made a promise to show my strength and that I won't cry no matter what until it's goodbye.
The girls then begin the cry even more as we comfort on another again, me slowly approaching the microphone again with Aera sobbing on my shoulder.

"Some of you may think that I have a big problem since I got a heart disease from drinking. 'JJ is problematic'. No I'm not. I was coping with a loved ones death." I then take a few more deep breathes before the tears stop and my breath becomes stable again. "In 2016, my oldest brother died in a highway car accident on a raint night, the night if my birthday. At that time, I wasn't allowed to drink yet as I was still a minor. I mourned for years about him, because he helped me become the JJ you know today. The moment I became legal, I began drinking. Then, about a month ago, I lost another one of my brother to a shooting in his work office. That night when I found out I got to the rooftop of the company and almost committed suicide. I couldn't handle the pain anymore. Then, this boy with orange fluffy hair came and saved me." I say as I look backstage to Junhan who was still in his clown outfit as he was on stage before me preforming Happy Death Day.

"He grabbed onto my wrist and pulled me up, comforted me and took care of me ever since that day. Funny thing is, that's the same boy who I bumped into in the halls of JYP. He was a trainee with fluffy hair, light freckles, adoring downturned brown eyes, bunny teeth and a beauty mark near his eye. A week later, I found out he was debuting soon and that his grouo was asking me to help compose their debut song. We began working together, along with his group, and immediantly clicked. We immediantly became best friends." I then sigh as I look at all of Xdinary Heroes. "Celestial and Xdinary Heroes was a pleasure to work with. I will miss doing what I love."

In the corner of my eye I could see Yuki signalling the boys to come on stage, which they did and lined behind us. She then took the microphone out of the stand and held it in her trembling hands.
I look behind me and see some tears in some of the boys eyes, them all trying to hide their pain. Meanwhile Junhan was staring at me with a frown. I shake my head slightly as I continue comforting the girls and ignoring him.

"Everyone, JJ will be going to Australia to get her heart transplant there. To fans who are in Australia, please take care of our JJ and help her pass her surgery. We all want JJ back with us, all nice and healthy." Yuki cries as Aera then takes the mic.
"JJ, promise me you'll survive alright? I want my soulmate beside me." She stutters as her lips quiver. Gunil then asks for the mic and Aera gives it to him with a smile.

"This is Xdinary Heroes first time hearing that JJ hd a heart condition, are we are very sorry that we weren't aware of it." He says with a sigh. "JJ was a great composer to us. She helped us get our parts right, helps us with our vocals and took care of us like a sister we never had. JJ, I wish you well during your transplant."
I smile at him and thank him as he gives the mic to Jungso who was asking for it.

"Junhan actually knew about JJ's heart condition, so he told me that today would be her last show." I widen my eyes and glare at Junhan who mouthed 'sorry' to me. "Junhan and I then went out this morning to get some gifts for our dear JJ." He smiles as a staff passes the medium sized gift basket to Junhan, who then gave it to me with teary eyes.
Inside the basket, was a pile of photos we took together (by we I mean Celestial and Xdinary Heroes), a few plushes of animals and origami hearts.

"JJ, Xdinary wishes you well during your transplant!" Gunil says into the mic again as they all bow at me. I bow back and thank them as I look at Junhan again. I place the basket down on the floor and hug the boy tightly.

"I'll miss you, Junnie." I whisper as I pat his back.
"Noona, please come back to Korea once your transplant is done."