𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞,
written by äzel
philautia.the compassionate self-love.
this it. this is the love that i need more than the others. i never felt philautia because people never allowed me to. so i thought that it was normal and that i deserved to lack it.
but the truth is, i don't think i do, in fact i am sure of it. i deserve philautia like everybody else. and i wish i'd seen it sooner. i let you love me because i did not, i let you love because nobody would.
but look were it got me, you hurt me, again, and again.
but it's over now, because i'm going to let philautia in my life, to greet her like an old friend and learn with her. it is time that we meet each other and take on the journey that is life hand in hand.
and maybe, someday you'll join us too.
𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞,
written by äzel