MILESTONES || LISOO

Chapter : 11

(Lisa's POV)

I'm conflicted with my own feelings right now even if I'm hugging her... It feels so incomplete! But i just can't see her like this, all broken and messed up. She told me everything she has been holding up till today and now she just spill it out! I'm sure she'll be relieved now, but what should I do? I'm feeling so bad and guilty that she had faced that torture alone, her stepmother harrassed her and that creepy bastard blackmailed her! Anger is boiling inside me and if to let that bastard down, i have to kill him...i won't regret it even for second! I want him pay for all of this.

But above everything, jisoo said that she faked everything, the time we spend together was fake for her, the memories of our togetherness was fake for her and that also means.... That the l...love...she showed me to was also fake!!!! She didn't have any choice in past so she just faked everything and that lead me here, where i thought both of us were meant for each other but i think i was the stupid to think everything without considering about others feeling like always!!! I can't blame her for anything now! Can i?

My own feelings are betraying me!! Neither I had any choice in past nor now! So i guess she really never loved me? But she said that she lost her love?! Who's she talking about? Just why it's so complicated for me, i can't be selfish right now. I want to hear from her to take any further step in my life, but i don't think it's the right time to ask her directly if she loves me or not! I'll wait....as i did till today...

"Jisoo", i called her name softly and still hugging her.

"Mhm", she hummed in response.

"Can we....", Suddenly my phone ranged and interrupted what i want to say.

I looked at my phone and it's Jennie unnie....shit I'm doomed! I excused myself from jisoo and picked up the call but didn't put it on my ears.

"Where the hell are you Lisa!?!", She shouted at me and her voice echoed through my phone so loudly that i can understand how angry she's now!

"Morning unnie", i replied softly.

"Don't you dare to morning me!! Answer-my-question?",she hissed at me as her tone is hella serious.

"I'm on my way!", I replied almost in whisper but enough to let her hear.

"........( LONG SILENCE)....... Are you okay? Comeback here, we have a meeting to attend", she replied softly and i can feel her concern and look on her face just by hearing her words.

I hummed in response and ended the call. And I'm myself unaware of what is best to do now when my heart is throbbing with pain. I left a huge sigh, just to calm down my intense heartbeats and went back to jisoo's.

As i entered the room, she's still sitting in the same posture as i left her in and was in deep thinking. The noise of door opening, interrupted her and she looked at me with her sparkling crystal clear Lake like eyes! Those eyes are causing Thalassophobia in me, I'm afraid of her eyes!!

I moved closer to her and sat beside her on the same spot as before.

"Uhm....i have to go now", i said in a soft tone.

She immediately diverted her eyes from her hands towards me and suddenly hold my hand, gently squeezing it and said," Stay please!".

Her words felt like home, but i know i shouldn't feel anything and the feeling which I'm still having for her should also die! It'll take time or if I'm truthful for once towards myself, i know these feelings will never die! My heart belongs to her but her's to somebody else. Don't say anything jisoo that means nothing to you because it hurts me, everytime it reminds me of the past that's the worst nightmare of my life.