MILESTONES || LISOO

Chapter : 16

"Look . At . Me. Only!"

Lisa snapped at her and grabbed her cheeks and suddenly bite jisoo neck to which She winced in pain and more tears feel from her eyes as she felt a stinging sensation on her neck and how tight Lisa's hold is, which left the marks on her wrist.

"Please...p.. please...plea... please...stop it!! LISAAAA!!", jisoo cried out her lungs with full intensity and tightly closed her eyes and more tears fall from her eyes, her breathing are fast and uneven and then suddenly she felt every moment stopped in an instant but still the grip on her hands was same like before, she slightly opened her eyes and saw Lisa who's stopped completely and looking at her with tearful eyes and her tears falling drop by drop down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry but..... it really hurts jisoo!", lisa said in a quivering voice and more tears fall from her eyes too.

Just both of them are messed up right now!

Everything feels so ruined right now...there are several ways to run away from this but this heart is too stubborn to run and instead decided to stay in this mess and find a way to get through this but how? It's not a question but a warning to the heart that either just stay away or fall apart!! Fall for the pain, fall for the regrets, fall for the tears, fall for someone and if something that is possible at this moment is just to fall for death!! Because it's gonna be the only way to reach for answers of every question that are building up but are unanswered!

Just how can love be so painful and regretful...how can loving someone, can change you to such extent where you lose yourself? Lisa's love for jisoo is not much different from this because she herself getting lost in it! But is this rightful to force someone to love you because at this moment she's thinking that only, as her heart is crying for years with the fact that jisoo never loved her and even after meeting again, jisoo never clarified things to her...just giving those two-faced answer wasn't enough for lisa in anyway because she didn't wanted it like this from the start! And now she gonna blame herself to make jisoo cry because her love for jisoo never died even after she learned the truth about their relationship years ago!

"I'm sorry that i still love you! I'm sorry that even when i tried to move on from these feelings i ended getting buried in them more! I'm sorry for hoping that one day you'll love me because i felt that jisoo...that you also loved me! Those memories still haunts me and when i wake up in the midnight, i still hope that you'll be beside me...but no you weren't there and still you aren't there for me! I'm sorry for loving you so much...that i lost myself....all those years, i thought you used me for fun but still i hoped that maybe i was wrong! ....and when you told me everything,i believed you because I love you! So... why jisoo?? Tell me why you still lied to me... isn't all this enough for you to make you believe that i trust you so much!!............I can't understand it!!! One moment you pulls me, and make this aching heart of mine believe you again and on the next moment, you just push me away...by lying to me!! Am i a fool to you....cause I'm not....a ...fool!",

lisa said in a whispering yet painful voice as tears never stopped to fall from her eyes but the grip on jisoo's hand is loosen up and she is now sitting on the edge of bed meanwhile jisoo also cried as she heard Lisa's confession because once again guilt clouded her heart and she sit up straight and fixed her clothes and tightly hugged those random piece of clothes around her like trying to shield herself... she's afraid as those trembling limbs and jolts of shivers are enough to convey this!

"What the fuck!! i have been thinking...that i forced myself on you...arghhhh! I'm really ruined... I'm sorry jisoo! I know it's not enough for you to forgive me for what i have done...i know.... it's not enough but...", Lisa said in a quivering voice and her head is hung down because of the shame she's facing after realising what mess she has caused. Jisoo is still in shock and crying more & more as soon as Lisa's words reached to her and looked at lisa...