She's My Home

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F A M's

Tita Jho and tato Bea picked Athena early in the morning coz they will be visiting their parents in Batangas.

My daughter is too excited to see what province is, tita Jho even mentioned that there's a lot of trees, fresh fruits and carabaos, pigs, chicken and goats that made her more excited.

Its a good thing for me coz I asked Yasmin to come over. We need to talk about what happened yesterday.

" Hey dear. " she greeted me with a kissed in the cheek I gave her a warm smile

" w..wait where's our daughter? " she asked raising her eyebrows

" Mhmh she's out with her grandparents. " I replied she gave me a questioning look

" Grandparents? " she asked seriously

" JB's parents. " I replied shortly she sighed

" I guess we need to talk about it. " I open up she just nodded

" About what? " she asked taking a sip in her coffee

" Athena " I replied she nodded

" S..She already knew about JB as her dad. " I whispered the last word

" Akala ko ba hindi muna natin ipapaalam? you're making our situation worst Frances. " she replied and took a deep breathe

She's mad I knew it.

" Athena asked her to join us for breakfast and I can't say no. We talk about something and it slipped in her mouth about our daughter and that's it Athena heard about it and I can't lie anymore. " I explained she sighed while tapping the table

She does whenever she wants to calm.

" There's nothing I can do about it Frances nandito na yan I can't change it. We just need to deal with it. " sagot nya napataas ang kilay ko

" So you're not mad? " I asked her she shook her head

" Why would I be? " she questioned me back and that made me mad

Oh God she doesn't care at all.

" Its not the reaction, I'm expecting Yas. "  I replied madly she sighed

" Why you're expecting me to be mad? ineexpect mo bang magwawala ako at sasaktan kita physically? hell why would I do that? It will just make things worst. All I have to do is to understand you " she replied I shook my head

" You knew what you never really care! You just let me do things that I want and It will ended up you understanding everything! What are you doing Yasmin!? You're the man heree! You just say you understand everytime I did something wrong and I hate it! You always say YES! and its getting bored, there's no challenge in this relationship! You always give and I always take! Ni hindi ka marunong magalit! masyado kang mabaitt!  " sigaw ko sa kanya napahilot naman sya ng sentido

" Getting bored? really Frances? at sa inyo pa taga nanggaling yan? what do you think the reason I always understand you? coz I don't wanna lose you! coz that's the only choice I have. Wala akong ibang choice!. How can I argue with you Frances? if I can't even tell what things can make you happy, what are the things you like most? Frances we're about to marry pero bakit ganun hindi parin kita kilala? Saradong-sarado ka na hindi ako makapasok. We're in a relationship for God knows how long but is there a time that you talk to me? is there a time that we have a good conversation? is there a time that you open up to me? sa tagal natin alam mo ang masakit? yung nangangapa parin ako pagdating sayo. I can't tell if I knew you already with that span of time we had its bullsh*t! Frances you can ask me to let you go if you want. Pagod na pagod narin ako sa kakapilit ng sarili ko, na ipakita sayo na naiintindihan ko, na masaya parin akong nasa tabi kita at ako ang pinili mo. Now is it still worth it? tama pa ba to? tama pa bang ituloy natin ang kasal? You can just tell me if you still love her, coz you choose to protect her eversince you knew what she had done to you. You can't be selfish to have both of us, you can't do that! That's unfairrr! Frances nahihirapan din ako, nasasaktan alam mo ba yun? *hik* I always make myself available for you even its hurting me so bad *hik* coz that's a f*cking love. Tapos ngayon you're telling me you're bored with this set up. Tell me if you want me to leave *hik* tell me if you want me to stay out of your life *hik* d..don't make me suffer f..for t..too l..long. *hik* t..tell me i.iff y..you w..want u..us to s..stop c..coz I--I'm s.slowly losing m..my s..self " she begged I'm crying so hard and hugged her tight

Oh God what am I doing right now?

I'm hurting her so bad.

" M...My d..dear *hik* I---I'm s..sorry I--I c..can't t..think straight. P..Please forgive me p..please? I--I n..need you Yasmin p..please. " I begged she caressed my back and kissed my forehead

" D..Dear y..you j..just need me, b..but y..you love her *hik* y..you n..need me c..coz i..its the r.right thing t..to doo. *hik* W..We b..both n..need t..time to t..think *hik* t..to m..make s..sure i..if we'll t..take the p..path t..together *hik* o..or walk w..with t..the d..different w..way *hik* I--I'm h..hurting d..dear, l..lets h..have some time to breathe *hik* to t..think a..and to reconnect *hik* I--I l..love y..you s..so much *hik* b..but y..your heart i..is s..still n..not ready. *hik* I--I d..don't w..want y..you to regret s..staying b..beside m..me when y..your longing f..for s..someone e..else *hik* c..call m..me a..anytime a..and I'll b..be t..there *hik* I--I w..will b..be w..waiting f..for you. Clear y..your head f..first. *hik* I--I l..love you Frances *hik* I l..love y..you w..with a..all t..the t..things y..you c..can offer. I..I'll s..see y..you d..dear " she stand back and held my cheek wiping every tears that is falling

She leaned in to kiss both of my eyes and finally kissing my lips.

She didn't move savoring my lips touching her then she broke the kiss smiling.

" Glad I can still kiss my girl coz I'm not sure I can do that again. " she smiled sadly caressing my cheek she turned around but I hugged her from behind

" D..Don't g..go s..stay w..with meee. Pleasee d..dear  " I sobbed

She put her hand above mine and put it in her lips kissing it gently after that she didn't look back.

She slowly walks away from me, I cried and let myself fall in the floor.

I'm hurting her, I'm hurting the woman I've promise to marry one day.

A/N
* Goodmorning guys so we're in the hospital again with my sister for her CT Scan and Creatinine most of you already knew about her condition that's reason why I really need to work harder, the reason for the slow updates dahil minsan pagod na pagod na talaga ako at kulang na kulang sa tulog hindi biro ang gastos sa pagpapagamot sa may mga cancer.
* Some of you are sending message how to send your help financially, sa mga nais pong mag-abot ng tulong you can just send me a message po for the details at to make it clear po hindi po ito sapilitan dahil I knew we have our own problems too also hindi po mapupunta sa sakin yun rest assured na mapupunta yun sa medication ng ate ko wala rin po akong hinihinging amount kahit magkano po basta galing sa puso. Thank you ♥️