WASTED
The dusk is on its way when Sandra decided to come out of her zone. She, who is still battling with miserability, is all up wearing a nice Valentino Braid-Trim Cady Dress - an alluring presence yet eyes cannot hide everything, including despair . She walks down the stairs, red and swollen eyes covered with smokey eye makeup which is to coat the evidence.
Arman, who has been waiting forever, come by chance to meet her at the foyer.
"Oh, tamang tama you showed up finally. Naghihintay na yung mga bata sa'yo. Dinner is ready!" He is about to give her a peck on the cheek when she moves her face away. Arman withdraws immediately, reminding himself that he is not yet forgiven. In spite of her cold treatment, he still flashes the sweetest smile he could give. Relieved is the word to describe what he feels. She is all fine and good anyway, that is all that matters for him.
"Mukhang may pupuntahan ka ata. Gabi na 'a. May-- may nakalimutan ka ba sa opisina?"
Arman notices her silence. She is not responding and cannot meet with her gaze. She stares blankly, a furrowed eyebrow, clenching teeth, as if she is going to explode any moment soon. He doesn't receive any response and can be comparable to talking to a brick wall.
She ignores and goes passed him by. She is about to open the front door
when he speaks again. "Sandy, where are you going?"
She, again brushes him off but he is determined to get an answer and so there's no other choice but to grab her arm. "You're not answering my question." There, he gets a death glare. "Hindi ka man lang ba sasabay sa min or at least sa mga bata? They have been waiting for days."
"Bitawan mo ko"
Her eyes once again reveal sorrow as the tears slowly form in her eyes. She dismisses the release of the hurt; as her hands reaches the doorknob.
"I'm asking you.."
"Kailangan ba lahat ng pupuntahan ko, alam mo?"
"Hon..." He holds her hand, trying to soften her but only to receive a slap, a really hard slap.
"Ang lakas din naman ng loob mong sabihin pa yan after everything that you've done at ang kapal din ng mukha mo para magpakita pa sa kin. Ano bang gusto mo, Itapon ko pa lahat ng gamit mo sa labas para mapaintindi na wala ka ng lugar dito?"
"Ano pa bang ginagawa mo dito?"
Instead of defending himself, he hugs her from the back, not wanting to let her go.She tries to pull back but is trapped from his strong embrace
"Utang na loob Arman, huwag na huwag mo kong hahawakan. Nasusuklam ako!"
"Babe, please hear me out-- I didn't"
"Let go" And the tears she keeps on holding, rolls down her chin uncontrollably. She tries to take off his arms around her but it tightens every time she would attempt.
"Please, pakawalan mo na ko.Tama na, sobrang sakit na"
"I'm sorry--I'm sorry-- Please, give me a chance to explain everything. Kung hindi ko pa rin mapapabago yung pagtingin mo sa kin then be it. Ako na mismo ang mag-aalis ng sarili ko dito sa bahay na 'to"
"You blew me off! How do you expect me to believe you?"
"I never blew you off nor I will ever do that to you!"
"You just did. Hindi mo natatandaan? Ang bilis naman atang mabura ng alaala mo. You were on top of another woman last week, weren't you?" She blurts out sarcastically;taunting him with all her might.
"No, I was just an---"
"Arman, please.Ayoko na. Pagod na ko"
He insists not to let go. Both are now in tears.
