VOUCHSAFE
"Sandra..."
And he gets her attention.
Sandra looks at him as if she's really waiting for this to happen. Arman finishes the whole drink (bottoms up). He takes a deep breath again and speaks, "She means nothing to me, and I want you to believe that."
The minute he lays his eyes on her, she avoids the eye contact. She cannot look at him, because when she does it's over. Those eyes are her kryptonite. She knows that when she looks into his eyes, she would lose her thoughts. It would soften her up. Because those eyes, It's like falling in love all over again. It is hard to turn away.
He pours the liquor again, "Wow, it's getting warmer.." He needs the sense of courage and bravery it induced.
"You know how much I love you and how much I care about this family. I regret the first mistake I did and vowed to you not to commit any again."
Those eyes. Damn those eyes.
Tears start to form in her eyes. "Curse me, slap me, saktan mo ko kahit ilang beses. I can handle it. Just don't, don't give up on us. Huwag mo lang akong iiwan. And I just have one thing that I wish you would do..."
Then he makes her look at him. It's too late, she could not turn away. No matter how she keep the tears from falling, it won't help. Not when she looks deep in those sincere eyes. Not when he's talking through eye contacts.
"Trust me. Trust me on this."
The tears start to run down. She thought she got over the crying stage. But no, truth is, she couldn't get over. Not until she learned the truth from him.
"I didn't plan to have sex with her nor I would. Pumunta ko sa kanya because I need closure. Ayoko na ng gulo. Gusto ko nang matapos ang lahat sa amin. It wasn't like I was looking for a one night stand, it wasn't like that. I don't want you to think I'm that kind of person. Mahalaga ka sa kin. Sobra ko kayong mahal ng mga bata."
"She asked me to meet up with her for the last time and she said after that she won't bother us again. Ako namang tanga, naniwala..."
Flashback:
She kept on calling him nights after nights. Arman would decline it every time, but she didn't want to end it like that. He told her to move on and that he has a family that he doesn't want to lose. She was hurt when he didn't even try to reach her, during those terrible days.
She felt alone and empty inside.
She had him; not for long. She knew she wasn't the priority. She knew this was going to happen. But she agreed to it, because she loved him. She loved him the most.
She was desperate to see him. She needed to see him. She would do everything to get him back. Yes, she's a mistress. A homewrecker. She's a mistake. But she's a lover too. Call it a selfish act, when all she ever want is to be loved by someone else.
She called him again- the 20th time, and luckily he answered.
"Arman please, I need to see you. Mamatay ako pag hindi kita nakita."
"Anastacia,please leave us alone"
"Mahal kita, Arman. Mahal na mahal."
"Ours was a mistake and I regret having a fling with you. Mahal ko ang asawa ko. Kaya pwede ba itigil mo na 'to. Tapos na tayo, hindi na mauulit yon."
She continued crying on the phone. Those remarks, made her feel she didn't belong to those who needed love and that she can never belong to them. "No, Arman. Please. I can't live without you. Please, don't leave. Please, don't leave me.." She continued weeping.
