tell me a story

light shine bright

"You know that the stars make me think of?" I whispered. "What?" Steve asked. "Fireflies." I said
Steve chuckled, cuddled into me, "How so?" " when Bruce and I were little, the fireflies at home would fill the air. We would always chase them and dad would tell us that if we could catch one and blow on it, telling it our wishes, it would fly away and take it to the stars to tell them, and some day, all our wishes would come true." I smiled to myself.
"Wow. Did you?" Steve closed his eyes. "Every night."
I yawned and closed my eyes. I snuggled farther into him to keep warm. He smelled so good. I yawned again trying not to go to sleep. "Y/n, go to sleep." Steve mumbled.
He was so strong feeling, but I felt safe. I sighed and went to sleep with him.

"Goodmorning." Steve kissed my head. His voice was raspy.
"No... dont. I was sleeping. I dont ever sleep." I whined. "Y/n, its 7:45 in the morning, people are going to wonder where we are." Steve said.
I opened my eyes, "cant we just go back to sleep?"
"Y/n, do you have a hang over or something? Come on." Steve helped me up.
"No I cant get drunk." I stretched. "What?" Steve asked. I realized what I said, "Nothing." "Y/n, i heard you say you cant get drunk."
I cursed, "I dotn want to talk about it."
Steve sighed. "I'm going to breakfast." He walked to the door leading downstairs.
I sat down. Why did I do stuff like that? Why cant I just be honest?
I stood and walked to the edge of the roof, looking down. It would be so easy to just fall and be free from my problems.
No. People here need me, more than I realize. Jack needs me. Steve needs me, and I need him.  

 I sat down on the edge, sobbing. I can't keep doing this. Why am I so worried about what everyone thinks? "Y/n," I hear behind me, "is everything alright?" I looked back. 

Loki walked towards me. "Go away. I just want to be alone." I sobbed into my knees.  He sat down anyways. He said nothing. He knew that the best way to help me was to just sit with me and say nothing.

I leaned onto him, "is something wrong with me?" he just stared at me, "No." "But I cry so much, I'm a liar, and nobody knows the real me. I push everyone that's important out of my life."    

"That doesnt mean something is wrong with you, y/n. I do the same thing." "People expect it from you. I'm expected to be perfect!" I threw a rock and it smashed into a neighboring building.   "Stop trying to live up to peoples expectations," he wrapped his arm around me, "because you will never meet them." Loki kissed my head. 

"What is going on?" Steve was behind me. "Steve..." I said. "God Im an idiot!" He shouted at me, "To think that you really-" 

"Oh my god Steve! Just shut your damn mouth for two minutes!" I screamed, tears running down my face, " My god Steve! You think I'm a cheater?! I told you to keep your mouth shut about us because I didn't want people to think I was, and now you accuse me of it for sitting with my best friend?!" I sobbed, "Oh my god i was a fool to think that you really loved me! It was probably a game for you wasn't it? Some little bet between you and Bucky that you could get me to fall in love with you! " I ran off the roof and downstairs to my room. I locked the door and slid down against it, sobbing.  I was a fool. 
"Y/n?" Jack knocked, "y/n are you okay?" I sniffed and wiped my face, "yeah I'm okay jack."
"Can I come in?" He jiggled the door handle. "Yeah let me unlock the door."
I let him in. "Why are you crying?" He asked giving me a big hug. "Did Ollie hurt you?"
"Jack, listen to me. Ollie and I stopped being friends because he wasnt a good person." "When?" "A couple weeks ago." I sat on my bed with him.
"And your sad now?" He didnt understand. "No, I'm not sad about Oliver."
"So then why you sad?" "Because my new friend that I loved very much was mean too." "Oh. Should I get you some chocolate milk?"
I smiled, "yes please."