Wild Heart | Jiara

Chapter 13

I've been putting off telling Pope about me and JJ. He hasn't tried to contact me and vice versa so I don't know if he even wants to talk to me. It's been almost two weeks since we've last spoken. That's the longest we've ever gone without speaking to each other. Before this we've never gone more than a couple of days without talking. I don't know what to do. I've thought about bringing it up to JJ but we're too busy sucking each other's face whenever we hangout. As of right now his lips are my favorite part of him.

We still haven't defined our relationship yet. We have a good thing going and I don't want to mess it up by asking what we are. He hasn't brought it up and neither have I, so I don't know where his heads at. This could only be temporary for him, and I know that would crush me if that's the case. I'm attached to him, and I might even love him. I'm still not too sure because I've never been in love but being around him just makes my day better. I forget about all my troubles and just focus on him. He's all I can think about, especially when we're not around each other. I know we should address this, but I don't know when it's going to happen or if it ever will.

I decide that today's the day I'm going to see Pope. I've put it off for long enough and I miss my best friend. I slip on some denim shorts and a yellow tank top with a pair of tan sandals to finish off my outfit. I stand in front of my full-length mirror and place my hair into a neat bun. Once I'm satisfied with how I look, I grab my keys as well as my phone and head outside to my car. I don't let him know that I'm on my way for fear of him making up some sort of excuse to not see me. I turn the radio on low and pull onto the road. I don't even think I'm really paying attention to where I'm going due to me having so much going on in my mind. It's muscle memory for me at this point though because I've been to his house a million times.

I notice that Pope's truck is sitting in the driveway when I pull onto his street, so I know for a fact that he's at home. I don't see Heyward though until I've parked and gotten out the car. He's sitting on the porch drinking some tea and I wave once we make eye contact.

"Oh Kiara, it's so good to see you." He announces with a warm smile.

I return his smile and go give him a hug. "It's good seeing you too. I feel like I haven't seen you in forever." I sit down in the chair next to him after I've pulled away.

"I haven't seen you at the house in a while... what's been keeping you away?"

I look down and mess with my fingers for a minute. I sigh. "I think Pope's mad at me. We haven't spoken in a couple weeks, so I don't know anymore."

"You two in a fight? Y'all never fight so it must be something serious. You two have always been attached at the hip." I'm not looking at him, but I can hear the slight concern in his voice.

I peer over at him. "I know, and I miss those times. Everything used to be so simple between us and now it's all so complicated. I wouldn't be surprised if he doesn't even want to be my friend anymore."

"Oh sweetie, I can promise you that no matter what you do that boy will always adore you. I see it in his eyes every time he looks at you."

"Do you think he's up for having some company? I really need to talk to him."

"Oh yeah, I think he's just up in his room. Go on in."

I give him another smile before heading inside the house. I make my way up the stairs a little slower than normal. I don't know why I'm attempting to put this off when I'm literally three feet away from his bedroom door. I stop in front of his door to take in a breath and get my thoughts together. Something tells me that after this conversation is over, one of us is going to walk away unhappy. I don't even knock on his door I just invite myself in.