I Won't Accept Your Regrets

Chapter 19

He took out his lotions and performed a full examination. He soon summed up:

"Neither the lady nor the child has any problems. A long voyage will not be a problem for the lady. However, it is better to prepare a cure for motion sickness."

"I'll do that."

"Oh, so this is a child!"

I heard Helen's trembling voice standing in the doorway. I looked at her shocked face and then turned to the doctor.

"Let's finish with this."

"Yes, then I'll ... I'll leave you."

The doctor hurried to retreat when he noticed that Helen and I had something to talk about.

After he left, I quietly called for Helen, who was still in shock.

"Helen."

Her trembling brown eyes gradually calmed down and focused on me.

"...Yes, my lady."

"As you could just hear... I'm pregnant. And of course, a child from His Majesty."

"This..."

She tried her best to hide her surprise, and the moment I mentioned Raymond, she covered her mouth with both hands.

I looked at her and calmly continued:

"Helen, you said you wanted to stay with me because you had nowhere else to go. I also want you to stay by my side. It is not easy for me to sail to a foreign country with a baby in my stomach."

"You are sailing across the seas... Milady, do you really want to tell His Majesty about this?"

I nodded, looking into Helen's trembling eyes.

"I'm running from the empire. And I will raise this child not as a prince, but as an ordinary one."

I said firmly, then sighed and continued.

"Helen, you know how cruel the struggle for the throne can be ... As you know, His Majesty himself killed those close to him, and that is how he ascended the throne."

Helen's face hardened as I reminded her of the whole story.

"And I don't blame His Majesty for that. Had he not taken such a step, the past crown prince would not have given him life."

I remembered the horror of those times, froze for a moment and opened my lips again:

"The Imperial Palace is a place where fratricide is considered commonplace. In this game, win or die. There is no third. When I first found out that I was pregnant, I wanted to talk to His Majesty..."

"You didn't tell him because of the appearance of Lisa and Edmund..."

"That's right. I changed my mind when this illegitimate child of His Majesty appeared. I have to protect my child."

"...Lady, do you really want to give up and run like this?"

Was it because I always tried to please Raymond's heart? Helen looked at me with a regretful look.

I know what she thinks.

But I've already laid out everything I thought about Raymond. Now all my thoughts are only about my child.

"All is decided. But, Helen, if you don't want to sail with me ... So be it, stay in the comfort of this estate."

"No no. I'll go for the lady. Anyway ... I have nowhere to go, even if I stay in the Empire. I will go with you."