O N Y X|| URBAN

11 .

*FLASHBACK*

February 18th

6:20

I had been beaten . Raped . Not fed in the matter of 2 days , my body was being put through so much all while carrying a baby I  just wanted to sleep I felt so drained .

My mama had gotten a new boyfriend , who she cared about more than she could ever care about her own kids I doubt she realized I was getting bigger

Right now I was waking up to go to school , I slipped out of "his" arms and made my way to the bathroom .

I turned the light on and hoped in the shower , my bruises hissed at the water touching my skin .

I didn't bother to tell my ma what he was doing to me , I would just cause myself 2 ass whoopings, she didn't care about anything as long as it didn't interfere with her substances.

I started to miss areyon , despite all the bullshit

" where you going" Marcus asked

" oh I was gonna go get in the shower I have school in a few " I said

It was going on my 3rd day not being in school, and I was really praying I could go today

" no lay back down I'll take you when I wake up " he said

I did what he told me and laid back beside him .

I tried to cooperate with him as much as possible so he wouldn't beat my ass.

" do you think maybe I could get something to eat like real food" I asked

" I'll think about it when I wake up" he said

" ok ..." i said quietly

Hours had passed and he had finally gotten up , he got dressed and i did as well  I tried to find the baggiest jacket that hid my bump , my clothes were starting to not fit my now growing body

After I finished I sat on the bed , and my heart started getting heavy I just started to cry

" what I told you about all that crying shit" he said

I just ignored him and stared off

" answer me" he said lifting my chin with his finger

" I-I can't help it" I sniffed

" why not what's wrong baby" he said

" I don't wanna talk about it" I mumbled snatching away from him

" no say it , you crying about it" he said

I shook my head

" stop that shit , ain't no nigga gonna put up with that crying shit, stop whining" he said grabbing my chin then slapping me then caressing my face

I snatched away from him and walked out

I went to check on kaiel , she had tears stains on her face .

" what's wrong baby" I asked

" alone in dark" she said

She was afraid to be alone , and recently since I've been doing "other things" she hasn't been sleeping with me .

"  I'm sorry baby I'll make it up to you , what you wanna eat" I asked putting her in my lap

She didn't respond she rubbed my bruised eye , I winched in pain