Some Divergent Thoughts

How will I tell you........

The story is written from Karishma’s  POV

It had been a month, that a ongoing rift is going on between Haseena and Karishma. Their relationship has taken a ugly turn....Haseena was blaming her for everthing.  Karishma became abnormally silent. Nothing was on the right track....literally nothing.....

One day, Karishma was sitting on her bed with a photo of Haseena.

“Aap itna kyu badal gayi hain? Haseena...hum toh esei thain phele se...aapne toh iss Karishma Singh se hi pyaar kiya tha...aab kya hogaya? Hum itne bure ban gayein....aap janti hain na. Hum kitna pyaar karte hain aapse, kitna maan te hain aapko....hum shayam se kaam kar rahe thain na...jab jaroorat parti thi...tab hi humne aapna bhoukal dikhaya...sirf aapke liye,  aapke pyaar keliye hum badal rahe thain na...toh kyu aap itna badal gayi.....aap chahati hain hum khudka pehechan bhula de....esa kyu Haseena....kyu...”

Karishma traced Haseena’s  photo with her thumb.....

“Aapki baatein bohot jyada hurt karti hain hume....humne soch liya tha, bohot ho gaya....hum transfer le leinge....par humne promise kiya tha ek dusre se....”

Flashback

Haseena was laying on Karishma resting her head, on her chest....both of them were enjoying the each other’s  presence and also the essence of the silence.

“Karishma" Haseena called in a soft tone

“Ji" Karishma said tightening the grip of their interlocked arms.

“I love you....”

“I love you too....”

“You are very special to my heart Karishma...please be there even in our worst fights....”

Karishma placed a soft side head kiss and said “promise ..I will be always there ...aap hume kabhi chor ke nahi jayeingi na!”

“I will stand by you till my last breath....” Haseena said in a calm tone.

“I can’t live without you ...” both of them said together in a moist voice.

Karishma smiled starring at the photo...
“Aapne toh kaha tha...aap humare sath hongi....even if we fight....aap toh nahi hain yaha....waqt ne sab kuch badal diya hain na, Haseena....par humara aapke liye wohi izzat aur wohi pyaar hain...

Waqt ke Saath Sab Kuch Badal Jata hai,
Har Yaad Dhundhali ho Jaati hai,
Par Aapki Tasveer Dil mein Uss Jagah hai,
Jaha Saansein bhi izazat lekar Jaati hai”

She paused a little ....

“How will I express what my heart’s want....aap jab esa keheti hain na ..ki Karishma Singh, hume aapki koi jaroorat nahi hain...tab maan karta hain ..sab chor charke chale jayein...tab aapko pata chaleinga, Karishma kya thi!....par yeah dil kya kare ...yeah toh khoo janna chahata sirf aapmein......Haseena aap bohot khaas hain humare liye....bohot khaas hain...ese hum nahi chor sakte hain aapko...hum khudse bichar jayeinge phir....”

Ki Kore Bolbo Tomaye
Ashole Mon Ki je Chaay
Kno She Paliye Beray Tomar Theke
Ki Kore Bolbo Tomaye
Keno E Mon Haat Baray
Abaro Hariye She Jaay Tomar Theke....

(Meaning: How will I tell you? What my heart wants! Why it always try to run away from you! But it always feels for you, it always wants you...how will I tell you? That my heart gets lost in you...in your essence....)