Blinded by hate

Let her have cake!

TW's in this x

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My vision goes horribly blurry and I can barely see when he drops his belt on the floor.

It feels like someone has reached in and taken my heart out of my chest.

It feels like my lungs are filled with water.

I'm desperately gasping for air but it's not enough.

I'm looking up at the ceiling begging if anyone is up there not to let this happen to me.

I'm begging my body to move and run and flee or fight back.

But I can't move, or breathe, or think.

He pushes me back on the sofa and I crumble.

"Please" I squeak.

He ignores me as he begins un buttoning his shirt.

"Please don't do this to me, I'll do anything" I whisper.

He ignores me and any bit of hope I have left leaves me.

I sob on the sofa. I sob my eyes out as he gets ready.

I wail because I know I will never be okay.

I shouldn't have to be.

He slowly un does the zip on my dress and I look past him numb.

I see myself.

Younger.

Maybe 5.

She had my dark wild hair.

Her beautiful eyes full of hope and light.

She's smiling at me.

The more tears flow out my eyes the more her smile drops.

"What's happening to us?" She asks me confused.

I cant answer her.

"I'm scared" she whimpers.

I reach out to touch her she holds my hand.

"Don't let it happen Elle!" She begs me.

I shake my head hopeless.

I cant fight him off.

"Please Elle, please" she begs me again.

I stroke her cheek.

"Don't let him do this to me" she says softly.

I gasp.

He pulls on my skirt.

"Don't let him do this to me Elle"

I look at her...me again and sob harder.

She reaches forward and holds my face.

"Stronger than you think" she whispers.

Her words break through ice.

"Don't let it happen to me" she says again.

I won't.

I won't. I won't. I won't. I won't.

I blink and she's gone and I look up and he's taking off his underwear.

I punch upwards, my fist connects with his mouth.

I scream it hurts.

He reels back and I jump upwards.

I launch myself onto him with all my energy.

He falls back on the floor.

I kick him hard in the groin.