Arrange my life

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- Zali Valera-
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I wake up late .. it was 2pm and I felt sick to my stomach.. I wanted him to comfort me but.. I can't see him right now.

I got up going to use the bathroom then cleaned myself up. I needed to brush my teeth and other stuff so I had to go to his room cause my stuff was there.

I walked upstairs and I took his hoodie off cause I only had a bra on and i didn't want to wear it anymore.

I walked into the room and seen him in the bed sitting with his head in his hands and when he seen me it's like his eyes lit up.

I wanted to hug him.. I just can't..

I walked to the bathroom as he watched me and I wanted to cry so much just then.. I turned the water on my side of the counter and began brushing my teeth.

He came into the bathroom doing the same and I looked at him one time and he looked like he's been crying for some time .. his eyes was swollen just like mine.

I rinsed my moth out after brushing my teeth and put my toothbrush up. I got my face rag and began cleaning my face. "Can we talk" he said with a broken voice .

"I- .. i don't know Cyper.. you really have me heartbroken right now .. " I say trying not to cry.

"Baby I'm sorry.. please just let me explain.. I didn't touch nor look at any other female in there.. I promise on my life I didn't .. I told you I only have eyes for you.. please just let me talk.." he says looking at me .

"Fine " I say as we walked to the bedroom to sit down. I crawled onto the bed and sat crossed cross on the bed as he sat on the edge of the bed talking .

"Zali.. I love you so much.. I wouldn't dare touch another woman or look at another woman in any way when I know I have the best one at home .. I wanted to leave once I found out we was going there " he says making me cry.

"Please don't cry.." he says rubbing my leg. "Why didn't you call me to come get you.. I would have been happy picking you up.. I was thinking about you the whole night .." I say wiping my tears

" I was too drunk to even think about calling you... I swear I'm so sorry baby please forgive me .." he say pulling me towards him.

" you had me not breathing right last night .. I thought you did something.. by the way if you ever fucked another bitch than me I'll cut your dick off and put it on your forehead " I say laughing while crying and he did the same.

"Can I hug you ?" He asked . I nodded cause I needed a hug from anyone at this point.. including him. "I'm still mad at you.. I'm just going to need time to get over it .. " I say .

He sighs. " I'll understand.. just know that I still and will forever love you " he says and that's when I felt nauseous again so I broke our hug running to the bathroom as he followed behind me worried.

I began puking in the toilet as he held my curly hair up. He stated rubbing my back trying to comfort me. "Baby .. are you okay??" He asked worried.

"I don't know.." I say puking again. After I was done he helped me by carrying me to his bed... our bed he calls it.

" here" he said handing me his water bottle. " I want my own.. I don't know where your lips been.." I say looking at him.