There are no word for what I feel right now as I am directed to stand over Xander. I take a deep breath as I try to make myself keep hope. They say that he is still in there but I have a hard time believing it. I take the back of my hand and smooth it over the light dusting of stubble that covers his cheek. Tears fill my eyes as the tingles are barely there. They might as well be nonexistent.
We must keep our faith. We need our mate. Our young needs our mate
Her words cause me to freeze for a moment. Through all of this I had nearly forgotten that I was pregnant. My hand flies to my stomach as I close my eyes and send love to my baby. Whether or not we get your father back, I can love you enough for the both of us.
"We need to start Tika. I know this isn't easy but we are running out of time" Avery says as she lays a hand on my shoulder. My eyes open slowly as I meet her gaze. A shuddering breath leaves my chest and I grab her hands like she wants.
"Let's begin" I state with confidence.
I will be here to help you every step along the way. WE can do this
"Now I want you to close your eyes and open up your mind. I am going to help you access your connection to the ether. Don't get discouraged if you can't do it right away. it took me a long time of practicing before I could. Just follow the love you feel and it will lead you there" She says lowly.
I try with all my might to focus but I cant. When I look inside all I feel is the pain that I am left with. My connection to him is gone. My parents are gone. I have been thrown into this position and I don't even know if I can take care of his people. This is all just going to go so bad.
"Tika!!" she screams. My eyes flare open and my chest rises rapidly with my breathing. She jerks her hands away from mine and paces to the other side of the room. "You were wallowing in your pain. I don't need you to be a cry baby right now. I need you to be a female alpha. Either you get your shit together and do what I said, or this is over. Your mate will die and so will mine" She yells at me.
I narrow my eyes into slits as she talks to me like this. How dare she even have the audacity to speak to me this way. Before I can speak however Maximus jumps to my defense. "You need to ease up on her. You have no idea what she has been through with this. All of your bull shit assumptions need to be put aside". He says with a growl.
"Thank you Maximus, but I can speak for myself" I say as I meet his gaze warmly. I never thought that he would stick up for me. We don't know each other that well after all. However, I can easily see why he is Xander's beta. As I turn back to Avery, my gaze narrows once more, "I may dwell in my pain. Right now it is the only thing that I know. This is my first time even touching him since the incident. The loss of our bond was a shock to me" I tell her as my throat thickens with unshed tears.
"You do forget something though Avery. Loss can make you love some one more. Not just because they are no longer here but because of the what ifs. What if we would have grown closer? What if he were here to raise this child with me? What if I never get the chance to know how much I truly loved him? Dwelling in my loss is a part of showing my love for him. it gives me the strength to want to find him all the more. Just allow me to make my way through it" I ask nicely as I take deep breaths.
Together Now
This time as we close our eyes the pain is still there. The ache in our chest is still just as strong. We try to settle ourselves by taking a few deep breaths. When our mind runs blank of those horrible images as the light faded from his eyes, it's like we float in a sea of darkness. There is a peace to this darkness, however. Once everything feels calm and still I think of him.
Xander. As soon as I call out to him a feeling hits my chest. It's warm and all encompassing. In the distance I can clearly see the gold of his eyes. They shine in that piercing way that he only uses when he looks at me. As I breathe I focus on his gaze and more of him appears. His full pink lips come into view right below his broad nose. His strong jawline tightens just as it does when he clenches his teeth. His hair beams in like a gold flowing river.
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The Alpha Dragon's Prisoner
FantasyTika They delivered me to him on a silver platter. Four years ago I was an ordinary girl with a privileged life. After killing the only family I have left, they call this my penance. As I watch the man they call a monster from underneath my lashes...