These Scars of Ours // kiritoxasuna // no longer a fan fiction in works

11: And Then They Fell

Asuna's P.O.V

A warm feeling surged through my body. I didn't know what it was though. When I peered my eyes open, I was faced by a vast blue sky that looked like it could never end.

I hoped it wouldn't.

I just need a break for now really. For 10 minutes. From feeling stressed and feeling like something was about to pop out and stab me with a knife.

For example, Serenity. That was such a weird dream... Or was it just an illusion? That wasn't real. Definitely wasn't real.

She reminds me of a lot of things really. Like a puppy who grew up to be a chihuahua that thought it could terrorize the whole world. Or maybe a dead dandelion in a field of roses that took all of the oxygen from the roses.

I think what she reminds me of the most is of one of my biggest fears. Loosing Kirito.

When Sugu trapped me in that cage... I had basically lost Kirito. It was a unbearable pain that I had to deal with for what seemed like a year, when it was maybe 3 months. Either way, it was painful.

Another fear I have is... killing people. Its weird right? I killed Serenity. With no second thought. I am glad I had done it of course, but I can still remember that look I'm her eyes. The look of her life slowly draining away from her like her HP gauge.

I wonder what her family was like?

I actually don't want to know that really. That would make me drown in a pool of my own guilt.

The last fear I can think of is getting lost. Not just lost, as in when your at the grocery store and you can't find you mom, but lost as in losing sight of who you are.

That's what I feard back in SAO. I still fear it, but Kirito guided me through the pain and helped me survive the game. I was glad I met him, and fell in love with him.

Serenity threatened our friendship and love. I will never let anyone do that. Not while I can actually do something.

I snapped back into reality, and searched my surroundings. There were just a bunch of clouds though. It was pretty peaceful though. I tried to plant my feet on the ground, but I was just floating, and ended up doing a front flip in the air and screaming. Regaining the little balance I had was hard, but I managed to do it.

I slumped my shoulders. I have 5 major problems here. I don't know where I am. I don't know why I'm here. I'm all alone. I don't know where Kirito is. And lastly, and the worst issue, I'm starving.

I curled up into a big ball, and put my head in between my knees. When I looked down, I was met by a never ending sky, and I felt my stomach drop.

There are two different ways you could take my situation. You could take in the amazing and beautiful scenery. You could breathe in the fresh air, and try to swim around in the air and do backflips like I accidentally did earlier. Of course, that isn't exactly how I'm taking this.

The second way you could take this is by freaking out and making yourself into a big ball that looks like a big rice ball.

Wait, I could just log out! I flicked my wrist, but nothing came down. Where did the menu go?

Great. That makes 6 major problems here.

I started feeling really sleepy. Why am I getting sleepy? I don't wanna sleep! That's how a basic Japanese horror film works! The young girl falls asleep because she got chlorophylled and then things go majorly down hill! Why is my thinking all over the place like this?

These thoughts raced through my head and I soon threw my head back and fell into a deep slumber.

My vision was filled with black. Nothing more, and nothing less. I stared at this blankness with no words for at least an hour, but it felt like 5 minutes. How does that even make sense?