⚠️contains bad language, ED, self harm, toxic relationship, abuse⚠️
"He hates her."
"No he doesnt, not really. She just makes him feel things that he's claimed doesn't exist."
A Mattheo Riddle love story.
| ENEMIES TO LOVERS |
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————————————————— I feel some shuffling next to me, waking me up. I open my eyes, laying on the stomach of my best friend. I've missed him, we haven't been close lately
But yesterday, after I smashed glass against Mattheo his head, I told him everything. I had sobbed in his arms until I eventually fell asleep
I look up at him to see him snoring lightly, his hair messy and draped over his forehead. He has become skinny, paler then usual, his hair thinner and his cheekbones showing more then ever.
I look at my own arm, the inkt clearly visible and red lines crossing over the skull, showing that I've been rejecting it.
It's weird how quickly things can change, ruin you and damage your heart even more then it already has. Mattheo broke me, hurt me.
In the beginning he made me happy, lovable, wanting to eat, wanting to wake up and smile.
It was all fake
He did it for his own good, he did it to make his daddy proud. I know he probably didn't have a choice but still, he made it feel so real. Like he really loved me
Draco stirred in his sleep, taking me out of my thoughts. He sighs as he opens his eyes, being reminded of reality. "Morning" he says in a raspy voice, instead of his usual 'Goodmorning'
I smile shortly at him biting my cheek to prevent myself from crying again.
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Today I would be given a task, Voldemort himself is going to give me.
I'm in the forest next to the Malfoy Manor, the trees are still naked and cold, the air is still and wet. It's January so I'm hoping we're getting snow soon,
I hear footsteps so I quickly turn around
I almost immediately get tears in my eyes as I see the person standing in front of me "I'm sorry." The curly haired boy says softly pity can be heard in his voice.
"I do not want your apology!" I shout with a quiver in my voice, I can feel a lump in my throat.
"I didn't want to do it, I didn't have a choice." He whispers "he would've killed you if I didn't do it."
"I would have been better off dead." I say loudly, "would've done it myself if you had not invested yourself into my life." a tear falling down my cheek.
His lip quivers as he opens his mouth but closes it again, he's at loss of words. "I really thought you were helping me, I trusted you!"
"With my whole damn fucking heart."
He looks at the ground ashamed. I've never seen him ashamed before.
"I let you know all my secrets, I let you into my own fucking heart. I get that you didn't have a choice but why did you let it feel so real." I say looking him in the eyes
A single tear drops down his eye
He cries in front of me.
Not more then that one drop though
"It was real." He quietly says making my heart ache
"STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME" I shout loudly at him as I sob and fall to my knees "I'm not lying Autumn, I deeply care about you. This was not my plan." He answers as he drops to his knees in front of me.
"I never knew he was going to get you. I was trying to delay it, waiting as long as possible and trying to think of a plan to save you. Receiving many curses as I did so, but never let my father into my mind."
Tears staining my cheeks as I listen to him
"If I did then he would've killed you, I can't lose you Autumn." He whispers "you should have let him kill me, I don't want this life Mattheo." I say as I look at him, my voice hoarse from all the crying.
"It's your fault, it's all on you." I say in a disgusted tone while getting off from the ground.
"I'm sorry but I cannot forgive you, not yet." I say lastly before walking away, not looking back anymore.
- MATTHEO RIDDLE POV -
I look at her walk away, feeling like someone is digging a hole into my heart.
My lip quivers and I sob into my own hands, screaming and scratching my own skin. I stand up and feel my magic soak into my wand
I begin to throw spells everywhere around me, crashing into the trees. Screaming out some of the most gruesome spells that I know, making the beautiful dark oak wood come crashing down to the ground.
Why can't she just love me.
I feel so lost. Like a peace of my soul is missing.
- AUTUMN GRAY POV -
I walk into the dining room, Voldemort is sat at the end of the table
"Ah my girl." He says as he stands up, the smell of death and dark magic surrounding us almost intoxicating me. "How are you finding your place here?" He asks with his raw voice, making me almost subconsciously cough. "good my lord."
"Very well, today I'm giving you your first task." He says as he grins at me, his lizard like eyes getting a shade darker. "You must bring your own father here, torture him and then kill him." He says as he tightly grips his own wand
It feels like all the oxygen is taken away from me, making me feel like I'm suffocating. The same lump in my throat from earlier is back.
I nod "yes my lord." I say quietly. "Don't disappoint me Autumn, there will be consequences if you do." He lastly says before dismissing me.
I have to take a life,
The life of my own father ———————————————————
Short chapter sorry y'all but I also kinda love this chapter. But yeah what do you think? Lmk>>>
Also I'm posting quite frequently am I not? ((: well anyway take care of yourself bb!! I'm so damn proud of you<33 Love you -Raven
