September 2, 1942
To the woman my husband is seeing,
Stay away from him, Juanita. Stay away from Anton -my Anton. Stay away from my husband - the father of our son. It's been a year since the two of you started this flare of betrayal to your partners. You want him to stay gone, yet you find ways to shorten the distance.
It's been a year before I caught you sending him letters. I was a fool to believe that within that year, Antonio was a loyal husband to me. I was all wrong. You two have a secret affair that went on for months. Within those times, he mastered creating his convincing alibis -all for the sake of seeing you.
Please, I don't know how to put up my words in ways that you will understand the kind of pain that both of you caused. I read all your letters and realized you were the reason behind why our three-year relationship ended before. I thought I was the only woman he adored, and now, I felt I was just a shadow, and you're the subject to his poems.
I wanted to forgive him, but every time I look at him, all I see were the dirt of your secrets. You are a woman, Juanita, and you deserve more. You have a husband, and you know how unfair it is to be on his part. Does he know? Does he tolerate you, or is your husband the same as me? Ignorant, misled, and blind? How can you sleep with him while still having the taste of my husband in your mouth? How can you keep up with your little game as if you two enjoyed the thrill enough to erase the calls of guilt?
How could you do that? It's disgusting and it's humiliating. And I can't forgive Anton. In fact, I was about to ask for a divorce, but he said he can't do that. He made me feel so confused because how could show up with that kind of emotion and made me think that he regretted his mistakes but still couldn't resist you? I don't know what to believe anymore. I feel like I am being followed by your lies.
I never knew Anton has this kind of dark side that could hurt me and was capable of setting aside my pain. I want to forgive him, but I am afraid you'll still find a way to get him. Be in my shoes, Juanita. What would you do if you found out your husband's out somewhere with his other woman? What would you do to lighten the pain that takes away the peace in you? What would you do if you're me?
Shattered,
Theresa
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In This Heart: 1934
RomanceThe story took place in 1934, on the outskirt of an old town in the Philippines. Juanita, a twenty-four-year-old fresh graduate, got to meet again someone who made her childhood the best one. The sight of Antonio brought a stream of memories even fr...
