my daily life of thoughts

i will always need you

You always pretend I don't exist when your with anyone but me

you never call me or ask me how i am anymore

you say that you still care

you don't

you said that the past thousand times

now look where we are again

you say your sorry

that you'll try harder for me

but we both know thats a lie

that you feel no sorrow

because i never mattered to you the way you mattered to me

to you i was nothing special

i was never your number one, not even your number two

i gave you everything you wanted

i gave you my heart and you tore it in half

tape nor glue can fix that

you leave a scar that a bandaid can never ever heal

i gave you all my sugar and you gave me salt

i sacrificed everything i ever had and now i regret ever talking to

you that night

you tricked me into forgiving you

believing in your apology and fake truths

and i would do it again, always will

until every part of me is broken and im lost forever

because ill always need you

even if you never needed me.