You are always on my mind

Chapter 60

"Stef, I know this is way too early, but I've never been so sure about my feelings before. But it seems you're hesitant, and that's okay, I understand. I just need some time alone. I'll be right back. And saying that the blonde ran away so that the hazel-eyed girl wouldn't notice her tears."

It took a fraction of a second for the italian to process what had just happened there.

💭 Merda! Cosa ho fatto? Io sono una stupida! Ora lei pensa che io... (shit! What did I do? I'm stupid! Now she thinks I...)

So the brunette ran after her girlfriend, but she was nowhere to be seen...

💭 Danielle, amore mio, dove sei? Non puoi andartene come fumo nel vento... ( Danielle, my love, where are you? You can't just be gone like smoke in the wind...)

Stefania was desperate. She couldn't find her girlfriend anywhere. Then, she decided to go after Stefani, maybe her lover sas there.

When she arrived at her friend's room, she found Stefani alone and when she realized that the personal trainer wasn't there, the hazel-eyed girl threw herself into her friend's arms and cried, or rather, she collapsed.

Stefani immediately said goodbye to Bradley, promising to call him back.

"Stef, what is going on?" The singer asked genuinely concerned.
"I -I screwed it all up..." the italian stated breaking down again.
"What? What do you mean, sweetie? Where's Danielle?"
"I have no idea..."
"What do you mean, you have no idea? Stef, tell me, what's up?"
"Well, Danielle asked me to move in with her."
"Really? Oh my God, that's amazing! I'm so proud of her!"
"Yeah, but I wasn't expecting that a-and..."
"You said no?" Gaga asked concerned.
"No! I didn't say no!"
"So, what happened then?"
"That's the problem. I got speechless. Stef, I was trying to understand if I wasn't dreaming or fantasizing it. And for this reason, I got silent, just staring at her..." the brunette was sobbing.
"Oh, I got it... and then Dani jumped to her own conclusions, didn't she?"
"Y-yes... a-and then she said she knew this is way too early, but she was never so sure about her feelings like now, but she saw I was hesitating and she understood..." Stefania was talking so quickly and everything at the same time.
"Shit Danielle!"
"A-and then she said it was all good, but she needed to leave, because she needed some time alone and..."
"She faded away, I know. Fuck Dani! Stef, she always does this. It's her way to cope things, damn it!"
"Stef, I took a few seconds to process her reaction. I mean, I know I took my time to answer her, but I would never say no! Damn it, I love her so fucking much, she is my life! I was just really surprised, excited, actually. Because my dream had come true. I know I screwed up, but I went after her, but she was nowhere to be seen...😭😭😭😭"
"Shhhh, it's okay baby, I've got you!" 💭 I'm gonna kill you, Danielle!!!
"Stef, she thinks I don't want to move on with her... but I do! I desperately do! This is all I want! I know I..."
"Hey, calm down! Just breath!"
"I can't lose ber Stef! I love her!" Stefania was desperate.
"You're not gonna lose her!"

All the brunette could do was crying. Gaga was trying to calm her down, but the attorney was restless and inconsolable.

"Hey, Stef, look at me." Gaga asked. "I know Danielle very well to say that she is the most stubborn person I have ever seen in my life. She really is a sweetheart, but she has the awful habit of drowning her own conclusions and then she freaks out. But she won't leave you!"
"Stef, you didn't see her disappointed face... a-and then she ran away from me. And when I called her, she simply ignored me and left..." the hazel-eyed girl was sobbing and Gaga was pissed at the blonde.

💭 Fuck Dani, when will you change?

"Stef, look at me. I'm gonna call her..."
"It's useless, that was the first thing I did. Her cell phone is out of area, in other words: she turned it off." Stefania said defeated.
"Shit! Fuck! Damn it! Stef, stay here, I'm gonna look for her."
"No. I need to go after her."
"Sweetheart, do you trust me?"
"Of course I do!"
"So please, stay here. Let me go after this stubborn woman. I promise I will bring her back to you. But I need you to stay here. Can you do that for me?"
"Okay."
"Good girl! Here, take a shower, you're gonna feel better. I won't rest until I bring her back. I promise!"
"Thank you Stef!"
"You don't have to thank me sweetie. It's time for Danielle to grow up!"
"No, it was my fault..."
"No, it wasn't. And you know that. Danielle must learn to listen to people's answers. But instead of this, she rathers to run away. But leave her with me. I'm gonna tell her some truths."

Before leaving after the blonde, the pop star put Stefania under the shower, promising her to bring the personal trainer back.

The singer knew her friend very well, so she knew exactly where to find her. There were only two possible places: at the hotel bar, or on the beach where she made love to Stefania. Gaga was betting on the 2nd option, but even tho, she went through the bar. As she expected, the blue-eyed girl wasn't there. So, the singer headed straight to the beach where she obviously found the personal trainer sitting on the sand, crying. Her gaze vacant at the horizon.

At that moment, Gaga wanted to yell at her friend, to make her stop being so stupid. But when she saw the ocean-eyed girl sobbing. Her heart softned. So, the smaller blonde just sat by Danielle's side and hugged her.

"Shhh, it's okay." The pop star said caressing her back.

When the personal trainer saw her friend, she collapsed, just like her girlfriend a few minutes ago.

"Stef, she doesn't want to live with me. She doesn't love me enough..."
"Are you serious, D?"
"I-I asked her to..."
"I know. You asked her to move on with you."
"Yes."
"But did she say no?"
"Stefania's lack of answer says everything..."

The ocean-eyed girl was sobbing. She could barely manage to speak.

"No! Absolutely not! Look at me you silly goose."

Danielle didn't do what she was told. So, Gaga lifted her head.

"Dani, look at me." She said. This time a little firmer. This made the blonde look at her friend.
"Dani, you did it again, baby! Once again you ran over everything. Came out jumping  to conclusions (wrong ones, by the way) and ran away. When in fact, you should have stayed there to hear what your girlfriend had to say." Gaga said affectionately.
"No Stef. She doesn't want to. She made it very clear."
"Oh, really? How did she do that? Staying silent and staring deeply at you? Did you by any chance hear her say no?"
"Stef, the lack of answer is an answer..."
"Did Stefania say the word, Danielle?" The singer asked once again, this time a little louder.
"N-no..." the blonde said almost inaudible.
"Oh, great. You know what? You're such an idiot! Why do you always do this shit, Danielle? How many times I will have to show you that you're doing shit? Fuck, D! YOU MUST LISTEN!!! What do you want? Do you wanna lose her?"
"What? No! Of course not! Are you insane? You know Stefania is my life!"
"Really? Because it is not what looks like! Because you've already hurt this woman twice. Two fucking times! For being such an idiot! A real pain in the ass! When you were stabbed, and now... damn D, stop fucking everything!"
"Stef..."
"No! Don't come with this! Dani, it's time to grow up! You can't keep hurting the woman you say it's your life! Don't you dare to hurt her anymore. You don't have the dimension of how much Stefania loves you, you stupid! She is there, in my room, completely broken, blaiming herself for YOUR childish attitude."

Gaga's words hit the bund in full! But the singer didn't stop.

"Danielle, Stefania has her heart set on you! But you, once again hurt her because you're a donkey and instead of being calm to listen, you simply assume something and run away. What the fuck are you wanting, to lose her? Because if so, go there now and break up with her! Stop being a coward and let her go to be happy with someone less idiot than you, someone who will listen to her!" Gaga was pissed.

Danielle's eyes widened and she said immediately:

"No! Of course not! I'm so fucking in love with Stefania! You know that!"
"So, stop being that dick in the ass, go to my room, take your girl to yours and talk decently to her instead of assume wrong things! Otherwise, I will tell her to break up on you once for all!"
"D-do you think she w-would..."
"And you have any doubts, you idiot?" Go after her once and for all!"