You are always on my mind

Chapter 51

"Of course! Please, take me to the love of my life!"

Stefania practically ran out to meet her love. She was anxious to see Danielle again.

As soon as they arrived at the surgical center, Stefania still had to hold back her anxiety for a few more minutes, as she still needed to dress up, since the blonde was still in the recovey room, a sterile environment. When she was ready, the brunette just begged to the nurse to take her to meet her girlfriend.

As soon as the hazel-eyed girl saw the blonde in bed, still hooked up to some devices to monitor her vitals. She ran over to her.

"Bambina!" The italian said already reaching the love of her life.
"Hi my love!" The personal trainer replied smiling large, but visibly weak. "Missed me?"
"You know I did! A lot, bella! Are you okay, amore mio? Are you in pain? Gosh Dani, I died a thousand times waiting for you!" The attorney cried while kissed all over the blue-eyed girl's face.
"I'm good, baby girl! And I'm not in pain my love! Oh, princess, I'm sorry I scared you. But I'm back honey. I'm right here for you and I'm not going anywhere without you, love!"
"Thank God! I was so scared bambina! I just can't live without you! I-I, Danielle, I love you so much!" The brunette stated still crying and hugging her girlfriend.
"I love you too baby girl! I was scared too, but thinking of you, of us, of our love gave me the strenght I needed to fight, baby! Stef, my love, you saved me! Thank you so much!"
"No bambina.... I was the responsable for this..." the italian woman said it devastated.
"No! Stop it, my love!" Danielle cut her speech.
"But bella, that despicable man just..."
"Stefania, stop it. Now! Don't you dare to say what I know you're thinking! This was not your fault! And I'd rather to die than see you with that dusgusting man!"
"But bambina..."
"Stefania, I don't think you understand... if you had given that piece of shit what he wanted, maybe you would have managed to avoid the stab,  but you wouldn't have avoided my death! Can you understand? Seeing you with someone else, especially a despicable human being like that ( if you can call that motherfucker a human being) would be worse than a thousand stab wounds to my chest! Fuck!!"

At thst moment it was Danielle who was crying.

"I would do it again and again just to protect you! Can't you see this?"
"Bambina, that was my fault! I couldn't protect you from that piece of shit. I failled..."
"No Stefania, that wasn't your fault! Neither you nor anyone else could protect me from that damn son of a bitch. Because even if all the hell came to earth at once, to avoid me from flying into that scrotum, no one, not even the demon himself, would be able to hold me! So stop with these nonsense!"

Now it was the blonde who was yelling. She was pissed and couldn't believe she was hearing that.

"Bambina... you almost died becausr of me!" The hazel-eyed girl finally said it out loud. There was so much pain in her words.

"Yes Stefania, I almost did it, but I didn't. And you're wrong, it wasn't because of you. It's not your fault if this motherfucker is a shit person! So, stop it now!" Danielle was crying.

The italian nodded and leaned in to kiss her girlfriend's lips, but the blue-eyed girl turned her face away. The italian was surprised by her girlfriend's reaction and looked at her completely in shock.

"B-bambina..."
"I think it's better you wait out there. I'll see you when they take me to the room... " the american girl said full of pain in her voice.
"A-amore mio..."
"Please Stefania, go.  And do me a favor, call Stefani here." And after saying that, the blue-eyed girl closed her eyes making it clear that the conversation was over for now.

The attorney was feeling horrible. If everything that happened wasn't enough, she had still hurt Danielle, even though Stefani had warned her to stop thinking  those stupid things... the brunette still stood there for a few seconds, with tears flowing freely down her face, just looking at the love of her life. She was still so beautiful! She was pale, downcast, but she was still Danielle, more beautifil than ever! 

💭 How can she do this?

When the nurse came in to check on Danielle, Stefania snapped out of her trance and walked out crying, just saying:

"I'm gonna ask Stef to come."
"Okay." The ocean-eyed girl replied dryly.

And then she was gone. When the blonde realized that she was alone with the nurse, she took the pillow, put it over her mouth and screamed with all her strenght. The nurse just looked at her...

"Difficult conversation?" Asked the woman.
"You have no idea... this is so... frustrating! Damn it!"
"Calm down! Take it easy on her, she's very nervous. In fact she also should go throug an evaluation, but she vehemently refuses to do, so she says only you matter! She's so stressed..."
"Yeah, but she said she should had given that motherfucker what he wanted... that's ridiculous!"
"Danielle, she's so stressed! She doesn't even know what is she talking about. She doesn't even know how to deal with everything you both have been through, and her feelings. Sweetheart, your girlfriend saw you go into a cardiac arrest on the way here. And you didn't react, despite the attempts of resuscitation, because you were hypovolemic. So the paramedic asked if she knew your blood type, because you needed an urgent blood transfusion and he needed to notify the hospital, so we'd have everything ready when you 've got here. But unfortunately, she didn't know it, and despair took over her once again. She was there, watching you dying... did you know she saved your life?"

The personal trainer was surprised...

"W-what do you mean?"
"Well, your girlfriend didn't know your blood type, like I said, but she is O negative and a blood donor. Luckily, she had just had her tests done, so she obligated the paramedic to do a direct transfusion from her to you during the path here. That was what kept you alive. When you arrived here, the team was already waiting for you with blood bags, but it was very difficult to get her out. She didn't want stop giving you her blood, which made her ending up giving a little more than the safe amount, once it was really difficult to convince her that we had everything under control. This woman loves you so much dear! More than her life itself! She's just in shock, feeling guilty and useless for you. Don't take that nonsense she said serious."

Danielle was speechless...

Suddenly they heard someone clean her throat... it was Gaga.

"Hi baby."
"How are you feeling?"
"Better than I deserve!" Fhe personal trainer replied.
"Don't say that!" Stefani scolded her friend.
"Stef, I fucked up..."
"I know. I saw Stefania."
"How is she?"
"Are you serious? How do you think she is?"
"Fuck! I'm an idiot!"
"Yes, you really are! But don't worry, everything is gonna be fine."
"Stef, did you know she saved my life?"
"Yep!"
"She donated her blood to keep me alive till here. 😍"
"Exactly!"
"And it seems she gave more than she should..."
"That's correct babe."
"Stef, you must convince her to see fhe doctor. Please! I'll pay for..."
"Don't be stupid! This is not what matters here. I will pay for everything. Why so much money if I can't spend it on the people I love?"
"Stef, I need her to be safe. To be fine..."
"Oh, you do? So why did you treat her that way?"

The blonde sighed....

"Because she insinuated she should had had sex with that piece of shit just to save me. And I got so fucking... jealous just imagining that son of a bitch touching my... woman!"
"But Dani, did you lose your neurons besides blood? Fuck, don't you understand that she feels guilty that you took that knife that almost killed you? Damn it, she saw you go  into a cardiac arrest and totaly unresponsive to the resuscitation maneurs. Do you think that was easy for her? If you put yourself in Stefania's place... if it was the other way, wouldn't you want to go back in time just to sleep with that son of a bitch and thus avoid her from getting hurt and almost dying? I thought you were a little smarter than that. She would never go to bed with this piece of shit out of pleasure or desire! She is ready for sacrifice herself for you, you silly! She just wished she had managed to protect you and avoid all this shit! And you know that!"

The pop star reasoned with her friend.

"Yeah, you're right. Fuck Stef..."
"Take it easy. She will be okay. You both will be perfectly fine. Now take some rest..."
"What? No! Stef, I need to see her, right now!"
"No, now you need to rest. She said you told you'd see each other when you were in your room. You'll be right there, so you can talk to her and fix this mess."
"No Stef, I need her now!"

And saying that, the blonde ripped out all the venous access and all the wires that connected her to the devices, got up and went after her girlfriend.