today someone told me everytime they try to recover, someone always pulls them back down. intentionally or unintentionally
and it's freaking me out and everything is so loud and overwhelming why cant i just have a mute button on life. turn off all the colors. dim the conversations and pad the vibrations. have me float in a container of water so i wouldn't have to feel anything. anything to make it all go away so i don't have to deal with all the sensories anymore
but even if someone did make all of that possible, which is already highly impossible, they wouldn't be able to block out my worst enemy—myself.
