I Own You

Chapter 6

The long explanation from Pond couldn't fix his broken trust towards Pond and Yok. But he understood the reality.

After Kinn and his minions left Pond and Yok sat and start the so-called explanation.The explanation which explains why he is here in this entertainment field and the capability of Kinn and the indirect threat that is pointed at him, Pond makes sure to explain his without Pond he is nothing. He remembers all...The explanation he silently listened to.

"Porsche...You should know by now...We are nothing in front of Khun Kinn.."

"Porsche..you only have your pretty face..you don't have any other qualifications...Your Face is the only way you earn money..take it to your brain "

That statement hit him hard...Yes ..he is not educated enough..yes ..he had to drop out of high school...All are true..he accepted it. Is it because pond thinks that he is not smart enough to finish high school? Porsche wanted to scream at Pond. He wanted to scream at them and tell them that he was a top student. But he stayed quiet...

Is it his fault that his father doesn't want to spend money on his education? Is it his fault that his father wanted him to start acting and be the breadwinner for them other than finishing high school? Once he was the topper and still he couldn't finish high school. Porsche wanted to laugh at his own unfortunate fate.

From childhood, he is a loser. losing his mom at the age of 12. His mother passed away leaving him and his little brother alone with their drunkard father and an ill grandmother. Losing the care and love of his father after he married their stepmother..he is nothing but a loser..Always losing to his unlucky fate.

Porsche thought he was lucky when Pond saw him at his part-time job place at the Age of 17. He thought he will be relieved and not need to work so hard to pay the fees of his and his brother's school and he had hoped...A hope to end high school and go to college to do a business degree. His long-term dream is to run his own business. But all his dreams were shattered when his father wanted him to be a full-time actor and drop his studies. He fought hard...Begged..got beaten up by his father..he tried to give him reasons..but again he loosed ..Loosed to his father and sacrificed his dreams to earn money for his family.

Porsche was happy...At least His brother could finish high school..later he could go to a good college...Porsche swears to himself that somehow he will make his brother's dreams true. He never wanted chay to end up like him.No..his brother will get everything which he couldn't get...

Porsche always felt happy...He worked hard to earn money and went to auditions or reality shows for extra money..The majority share of his earnings went to his father and he kept a small amount of money for himself. He was relieved to see his grandmother could have proper medicine and Chay is doing his studies well...He never wanted to think about his father and stepmother and never wanted to think about their stepbrother who gets all the love and care from their father...

Porsche was thinking about the past and listened to Pond's Explanation which start calmly but eventually got into accusations... The words Pond is using shattered Porsche's hard. Indirect threats and explanation that he is nobody...Pond deliberately used a harsh way to explain.

Pond was exhausted...He is trapped and Pond never wanted to be on the bad side of Kinn. Pond thought one day Kinn will be tired of Porsche and till that he has to make sure Porsche is not making any trouble and obey Kinn's orders. 

Pond never wanted to see Porsche suffer and he saw how badly Khun Kinn is treating Porsche. All the purple marks and the wound he gave to Porsche were all the evidence he wanted. How hard it might be for Porsche...How cruel Kinn has to be to have sex till his other partner bleeds that badly. But this is all about Survival thought Pond.

Pond kept explaining but Porsche stayed quiet. Pond tried to explain to him calmly he doesn't want to put pressure on the person who was already exhausted by crying and was currently in bed with a high fever. He can't let Porsche stay like this just because he lost his virginity. Porsche was one of the best money makers in his agency and he wanted to make him get back to shooting as soon as possible. But Khun Kinn strictly told him to let him have bed rest. This is an order Pond cannot ignore.

Since Porsche is not giving any response Pond chose a rude way to explain. Pond saw there was a glitch in Porsche's eyes whenever he mentioned his family. So he started ..Pond started with his family situation...Reminded him about his brother and ill grandmother and also he made sure to remind him about Porsche's father. Pond really felt bad to say this kind of thing to Porsche but he decided he has to make sure his agency survive. To survive he had to say this kind of thing.s to Porsche and all Porsche had to do was obey...That's all Pond is asking from Porsche but this stubborn idiot is crying over a lost Virginity.

Pond is not a newcomer to the entertainment business and the very first day he saw this young man he knew Porsche is going to be a star one day. He still remembers how hard Porsche cried and begged Pond to talk to his father to let him do part-time acting as he wanted to finish his high school. Pond tried to talk to that drunken man but it ended when Porsche got beaten up badly and in the end, Porsche was a dropout of the school. 

But Pond makes sure Porsche is a star and earning a good amount of money and fans all around the world. At the age of 23 Porsche is in a good place in this field and still, Porsche is living the village life. Being the virgin and saving his chastity for his partner..what bullshit thought Pond.

In this Field, no one stays a Virgin and all the stars willingly crawl to investors' beds to get new projects. But Porsche..Pond sighs..Their agency received lots of Money and new Projects just by a night Porsche spends with Kinn..What if Porsche keeps satisfying Kinn? Just the thought made Pond think about the achievements he is going to get...

"Aren't you going to talk Porsche? I am tired of telling you this but I feel like I should let your father to explain you ?" Pond took his mobile out and pretend to dial but as he expected Porsche stopped him. It was the last trumpet card Pond kept .he knew how scared Porsche was...Just reminding his father is enough to make him tremble with fear. Pond didn't want to do that but Porsche didn't leave him any other way.

"I am sorry Khun Pond...I won't be like this.."Porsche bowed at Pond and Yok.

Pond wanted to tell him not to call them Khun Pond but Pond knew its very difficult to mend broken trust. But it is ok...It is ok as long as Porsche obeyed and stay silent.

"I will take medicine on time and will be ready when you want me" Porsche's voice was a bit shaken but the message was clear to Pond.

"We will be here.." Yok couldn't finish his sentence as he was interrupted by Porsche.

"No...Please...I will be ready ...till that ..Please...I want to be alone and I promise I will answer all the calls I receive..." says Porsche didn't let anyone question his decision. He lay on the bed and closed his eyes.

It was a clear message to Pond and Yok. Honestly, Pond was happy. He was happy somehow he was able to convince Porsche to obey. They quietly left the room. If Porsche wanted privacy or whatever to be himself again Pond will give anything...This is all about survival Pond thought to himself. Yok silently followed Pond without making a comment. Yok was guilty ..but he decided to follow whatever Pond is doing just because he knew it is too late to turn and there is a huge distance Porsche created between them.

Unaware of them Porsche cried silently. He wants to be alone. All the Past and his losses came to his mind and he accepted that he is nothing but a loser... An uneducated loser with a pretty face..a nobody...