I awake in the morning
Iben's laying on the floor
sleeping like a baby.
Wait!
IBEN ON MY FLOOR?!
Why is he here?
I'm in my pajamas too?
How comfy did I get?!
"What's wrong Cali?"
That nickname, I swear.
My memory started to open up,
I let Iben stay because it started to rain.
"Uh, nothing."
I smiled before leaving the room.
It's better than waking up with
A grown man in your bed...
I got myself a banana before
Going to sit down and
Write.
Like I'm doing now.
More like...
I never stopped.
That was this morning.
Iben doesn't seem to mind,
How he stayed over I mean.
I don't mind, so long as he stays on the floor.
It's like a sleepover between buds.
I started to get lost in my thoughts
I didn't exactly know my feelings for him.
Like I've stated,
But I do enjoy his company.
He makes my days brighter.
Should I feel guilty for that?
I mean, you just...
And now I might be starting to like someone again.
Is that even ok?
I remember your funeral suddenly.
Almost like my head is trying to tell me
it's wrong
I start to cry,
Tears falling on the page,
small spots of wet paper arise.
Then grow.
Like my sadness inside.
The paper in my head turning to gray
as my sadness is fed.
I'm gonna go, I'll write later.
. ~ .
After Iben woke up he saw me crying.
He got me a tissue and tried to comfort me.
Honestly,
It helped.
But I still miss you.
Something cool about me is
I have dirt bikes.
I have had mine since I was 17,
I got you one when you turned 21.
Remember?
I know I do.
Either way, me and Iben rode them today...
He used yours.
I can't believe I was so calm with that.
Watching him ride a bike the color of old bricks
Your color
Mine is navy blue like the midnight sky.
But you know that.
I had a moment of freedom from the sadness as we rode.
The wind whipping through my hair,
The motor calmly buzzing,
Iben laughing,
Your memory happily replaying in my head.
I started to laugh with Iben,
not because it was fun,
but because I felt happy.
For once.
Once in a long time.
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Beside You, With Him
PoesíaYou seem to invade my mind, guns blazing. Making everything hurt and my eyes burn as the tears start to escape. He doesn't say sorry No "I get it"s Just trying to make it worth it to leave you be He keeps me from joining you. Enjoy the read! My...
