Kilgrave's Desire

Prisoner or fiancé you decide

We get back "home" a day later. Kilgrave was overjoyed to be alone just the two of us. More due to me not "being distracted" but it was really he had full control and my powers haven't returned yet. We rode in the SUV on opposite sides of the car while he talked on and on about the wedding that I kept reminding him will not happen so long as he is acting as he is. I am beyond dizzy like I am overcoming a severe hangover from the amount of control and power he is using on me.
From what happened in our hotel room to sitting in the car acting like I am all happy and in love with him is setting off major alarms which is reminding me of when he kept me prisoner in that little house outside the city. I sit there feeling empty like I'm incomplete thanks to my loving father for creating a nulling serum as well as kilgrave for giving it to me.
"You're quiet," he notes as our SUV crosses the Washington Bridge to enter the city. I stare out the window looking at the familiar cityscape coming into view.
"Sorry but I'm mentally and physically exhausted from you putting me under your control repeatedly as well as enduring the effects of this serum you gave me without consent," I snap not even bothering to look at him.
"You repeatedly trying to get the weather to bend to your will and keep trying to choke me with your Telekinesis abilities is a sign that I made the right choice," he scoffs as he scoots closer to me.
"You seriously don't know what the serum did to me do you?" I ask as I finally turn to find him right next to me his hand on my thigh.
"The serum I took didn't last long on me," he jabs like a wounded puppy.
"Poor you I am sorry that my father's serums only work when they are meant to harm me and not help you. I feel beyond weak so congratulations if that was the goal," I snap at him mocking him. "You seriously think giving yourself more power will make anyone let alone me love you?"
"You haven't tried jumping out of the car yet so you must love me deep down," he suggests in a half assed joke.
"That is because when we left the hotel yesterday morning you told me a list of what I can and cannot do." I remind him as I put my back against the door frame and window to look him in the eyes. "I cannot run away, jump out of the car, kill myself but let's be honest you know I won't. I can't call for help only to talk to people like things are normal. Oh and I can't harm you in any way."
"All you told me I can do is take care of our girls, talk to and interact with those you approved of. Take care of myself to keep myself healthy. I can kiss you and screw you and have kids with you and marry you," I finish as I look at him half irritated.
"You're forgetting the last point in that. All of that is in place until you truly and fully trust me and the things you are allowed to do are a matter of choice. If I wanted to sleep with you I could have made you but I am not a monster," he reminds me shaking his head.
He lifts his hand and touches my cheek softly in a way that nearly scared me since it was so familiar in a good way. He places his hand on my cheek as his thumb strokes my face his eyes staring at me. I stare at him back my heart in my throat myself wanting to kiss him and stab him at the same time though I am not sure which I want to do more. I leaned in my mouth mere inches from his. I can see and feel him smile like he won. Like he knew what I was going to do which I hate about him. He closed his eyes waiting for our lips to touch.
"If you weren't a monster," I whisper just two inches from his lips. "You wouldn't have done what you did and this moment would be very different." I pull away and out of his embrace quickly and look out the window again. I can see his reflection in the window and it's thankfully a look of disappointment and not rage.
"Tell me Melody," he begins. oh crap. "What do you want right now."
No no no. Don't give in to him. He is cheating. Just because he is sexually frustrated does not give him a right. My entire body turns to face him again his eyes bright.
"I want to kiss you and do unspeakable things to you," I reply truthfully.
"Good things?" He encourages.
"Yes and no I have needs too," my body replies again. Oh god I hate myself.
"Well then you may kiss me if you want to," his voice echoes in my ear.
"I will," I begin. Please no. "Once you stop injecting yourself and stop controlling me." Oh thank god.

"Welcome home Mr. Kilgrave," Kelly greets with Lyra in her arms as we walk through the door. My eyes immediately go to Lyra who is smiling at me and reaching towards me. I smile and grab her eagerly. Hugging her tightly ignoring the irritated look on both Kelly and Kilgrave's faces.
"Hi my sweet girl," I greet as I lather her with kisses forgetting where I was for a brief moment. "Where is Aria?" Lyra smiled and cooed just as the other nanny walked out from the hall with Aria in her sleep and play.
Aria squealed once she saw me. I walked over and held out my right hand grabbing aria from the other nanny so I had each girl on either hip. The girls laughed and smiled and I looked at them and marveled at their beauty and the amount of time they grew in that short time we were apart even if it felt like a lifetime. I started to walk towards their room when kilgrave stood in my way.
"Stop," he commands. I stop mentally cursing him as I stopped where I was. "Just. Where...do you think you're going off to with the girls?"
      "To their room to play...I haven't seen them in days and I missed them," I state dumbfounded as I readjust Lyra on my hip staring at him with the same confusion. "Why did you want to finally bond to them or have someone else do that?"
      "I figured we could spend time toge-"
     "-stop right there," I snap not caring if I piss him off. "You had these two women take our girls away from me for days if not weeks I do not know how long as you knocked me out because I outed you for refusing to try to be the parent you claimed you are. Not only did you knock me into a mini coma but you injected me with an experimental drug my father created to dull and gaily my powers."
      He shifts on his feet uneasy and opens his mouth to speak but I stare at him letting him know I am not done ... not yet.
     " You made me very mortal and weak just as you wanted...so you win in that," I continue.     " you used your power to keep me your little prisoner despite you claiming we are engaged to be wed again but we are not. I am your prisoner so long as there is no free will. If you want to be a so called husband then step up as a father first and earn my affection and love back not force it. Now if you'll excuse me I'll going to play with my girls."
     I pushed past him and walked up the stairs as I left him to stare off after me. I could feel his eyes on me as he watched me walk away and that was the first time in a long time he didn't try to use his powers to stop me. I don't know how long this will last but I will take my wins even if they are small ones.