Dream On

Chapter 23 - Fucked up

A month later

Everybody has moved out except momma but I'm cool with that , she like to cook and shit and she stays to herself a lot except when she go see my brother. And Jas and me been arguing non-stop especially cause she cranky with being 8 months pregnant.

3 AM

"Baby he's fucking hurting me!" She said laying in the bed

"well what you want me to do ?! Tell him stop!?" I said in complete aggravation with sarcasm

"No fucking rub it or something damn!"

I got out of the bed and walked downstairs to get something to drink only to come back hearing her mouth again

"Baby.... Baby" she said sounding nervous

"Huh?"

"It's happening" she almost sounded like she might cry

I walked up the stairs faster till I got the room "Talk to me" I said trying to keep her calm

"FUCK YOU MEAN TALK TO ME ?! MY WATER BROKE DREAMS!"

Damn , we better not make nomore kids

I was in total shock , it's like I forgot everything I was suppose to say or do when this happened yet I've been prepared for months.

"Grab the stuff Calvin please , get it and help me to the car"

I rushed packing things into the car and getting my momma up .

We rushed to the hospital and I damn near almost crashed 50 times .

My hands were shaking like I was the one in Labor , shit.

I parked the car then rushed to help Jasmine out .

Once we got in the doctor checked her and even though she was in pain and he water broke , her contractions just weren't coming as needed .

My mom waited in the waiting room while we sat in the room .

"Calvin we gotta talk" Jasmine said finally stable Laying on the all white bed

"Member I told you that the baby could not be yours right ? I think I Should call him to be here to just in case it's his , we will test the baby soon as he comes out"

I shrugged totally forgetting about that when everything had happened .

"Do what you want Jasmine , do what you gotta do "

But where has this nigga been all these months when you were getting kidnapped and shit

where was he at when I was up with you all them nights you was in pain

Was he rubbing your stomach and running your bath water

Was he fucking there ?!

I couldn't even look at her right now , I just wanted to get all of this done with .

I came in the waiting room with my mom and buried my face in my hands .

"What's wrong Cali baby?"

"nothing momma" I ain't want to tell her not only because I was so pissed but I was honestly embarrassed and humiliated

We sat in the room for another hour or so before I went to go see Jas again.

"He's on his way , just telling you" she said as I sat beside the bed again , I nodded

We sat in complete silence , it wasn't awkward but it damn sure wasn't comfortable either .

If the baby isn't mine I'll really be fucked up .

Forever

I looked down at the floor with my nervous hands clamped together , till I heard another voice " What's going on Jasmine?" I heard the deep voice rise

I looked up and my eyes were shocked once again .

This shit got me all fucked up.
This shit is all fucked up.
Fucked up way beyond repair.