"your alive" SabiGiyuu

Chapter 21 // A party? with him?

Giyuu's pov

A panick attack, that's what he was having right now.

There were too many people, too much noise, and he couldn't find Sabito.

As Tomioka tried to regulate his breathing, his eyes scanned the crowded, noisy room of which he stood in the center of.

He knew it was a bad idea to agree to this. But he wanted Sabito to be happy, to be proud of his improvement.

But he was hitting his final straw. The music was too loud, and people kept bumping into him. The heat of their bodies making him sweat both cold and hot.

He needed to get out of here and calm down. Otherwise, he was gonna pass out from a lack of oxygen. And he knew it was gonna happen soon going by his light headedness.

So he began to turn around, looking for an exit, once found he made a near dash towards said door.

He knew it was rude, but he pushed his way through the crowded room of people, but he was in too much of a rush to care.

As soon as he exited into the almost as crowded hallway, Tomioka began to dissociate. His bodily reaction to try and get him to calm down.

Nothing around him really mattered anymore. He just walked. He didn't notice that he ignored some young, pretty girl who tried to talk to him or the familiar pink and green haired girl who told the first one to scram.

He just needed to leave. This was too much.

The pink and green haired lady asked him something, but when he didn't respond, she just grabbed his hand and dragged him behind her.

Tomioka flinched at the touch but followed anyway. Still not much getting through to him.

Then he vaguely recognized the temperature drop as they exited the house. But he was pretty sure the lady asked him not to go anywhere before she left.

So when he began to focus again, he was surprised to find himself outside by the river near his house.

His estate was currently full of strangers.

He didn't like that thought.

But it began to come back to him. How he had spiraled into his panick attack in the first place.

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The music was loud. He could feel the base in his chest. It was over stimulating, and it almost hurt. Tomioka really needed to leave. But sabito would be sad if he left this early into the party.
It had really only been twenty minutes since people started showing up.

It's pathetic, and he knows it, but oh well, what can you d? Itt's hard to break old habits.
And that's definitely something that he knows what he's talking about.

It had been weeks since he last cut himse. He, he was proud, but mostly only because Sabito said he should be. That's another thing! Sabito was so proud of him. Having someone like that in his life was obviously a good influence. All the people that where now in his life were all good influences.

He almost hated saying it, but he was happy, he was really happy.

Tomioka really didn't want it to. He  liked this fever dream, it felt so real.

No, he shouldn't think like that, Sabito said it was bad for him. This was his reali. It was his life no, and he should just be happy.

'What am I even thinking abo? Ofof cour, e I'm happy, I have no reason not to be. Sabito's back, I have Mitsu, i, and I want to say obanai, but he's still more of a wild carthanen anything. My life is awesome, othethanen the impending doom that is muzan and his demons, but that's more of a future me issue.'