《𑁍𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𑁍》

Jeno - A losing game

This is inspired by the song 'Arcade' by Duncan Laurence
Pls excuse the slight cringe :)
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A broken heart is all that's left
I'm still fixing all the cracks

I'll never forget that day, the dreadful day you left me. The one that still haunts me in my sleep and traumatises me daily.

I was never the same after that,
It felt like a piece of my heart was ripped out that won't ever be fixed.

Lost a couple of pieces when
I carried it, carried it, carried it home

I watched you suffer from the death of your grandfather and how much it broke you.

You were so young, yet it had the biggest impact on you since you were so close and you loved him more than anything.

Even when seemed fine, I could see the pain in your eyes as I watched the sparkle disappear- you tried to hide it but I saw right through you.

I'm afraid of all I am
My mind feels like a foreign land

The day we met was the best day of my life, and now it pains me to remember it, knowing that it won't ever be the same.

You brought out the best in me and made my life worth living.

You were the reason I woke up with a smile every single day, feeling excited to see you and I was so grateful to have you in my life. I don't know what I ever did to deserve you.

All the happy moments and memories we shared were amazing- now they feel like they've faded or were merely an imagination.

Silence ringing inside my head
Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home

I watched you suffer, yet I did nothing- I couldn't do anything about it and I hate myself for it. How I wish I could have done something to help you.

All I could do was comfort you, be there for you and be a shoulder to cry on, but I know that wasn't enough to erase the pain.

I spent all of the love I've saved
We were always a losing game

If only you knew how much I loved and cared for you and how much I miss you, now and every single day.

Your beautiful smile, your contagious laugh, how caring and kind you were, to me especially. I miss it so fucking much.

I love you so damn much it physically hurts.

I got addicted to a losing game

Your death broke me and my life is dull and miserable without your beautiful soul beside me, your presence alone was enough to make me feel safe.

Now I know I'll just have to accept the fact that you're not here anymore and there's nothing I can do about it.

But at least you can rest in peace with your beloved grandfather beside you, knowing that you're happy now.

And now I stand over your grave with a bouquet in my hand, wishing you were here with me.

I love you Jeno but now I know
Loving you is a losing game.

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Ngl I find this stuff really cringy and I'm not good at it so pls excuse this one