𝑶𝒉 𝑴𝒚 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 Hanji x (Fem)reader

♡︎𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑻𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚-𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆: 𝑺𝒆𝒂♡︎

(Reminder that any events that take place do not relate to the AOT storyline anymore)

It had been a few days since the ship left, you were all becoming uneasy and rather short with one another. Just yesterday you had to pry Annie off of Mikasa.

Unlike the others you weren't able to sleep at night, you hadn't had a goods night rest since the day you left. You were sitting on a pile of ropes that weren't being used.

As the boat rocked and the waves crashed against it, you found yourself at peace and becoming to fall asleep. You curled into a ball and slouched down more, giving in to the sleepiness.

While you slept the others argued.

"How the hell am I suppose to know how long it's going to take? I don't go on boats, I ride horses! YOU guys go on ships. Maybe YOU should figure it out."

Hanji slammed their fists onto a nearby table as their anger began to rise.

"If you can't make good decisions then why did Erwin make you commander?"

"Knock it off Jean, I'd like to see you take Hanji's place. They're under a lot of stress trying to get everyone home in one piece."

Levi stood up, he glared at Jean as he backed away. Storming out of the interior of the ship.

"I want to go home Hanji. We need to make it in time, I need to see my dad.."

"Yes I know Annie, and I already told you that there's a slim chance you can see him."

"Enough. Onyankopon please come and help me with this."

Onyankopon followed Hanji, leaving everyone else to sit in a room filled with silence.

"This so fucking stupid. My dad gets killed because freedom boy isn't on a leash. I'll kill him. Take the founding for myself."

"His name is Eren. And you won't be killing him anytime soon."

"Shut your trap Mikasa, if you really think he shouldn't die then go collect your bird boy and make him cut this shit out."

"Watch who you're speaking to Annie."

"Or what? Gonna kill me, beast."

Mikasa slammed Annie against the wall, her grip tightening around her neck. Once again they had begun to fight, the two of them just couldn't get enough of it.

"Mikasa get off of her!"

Armin begged as he tried to pull the girl off of Annie. Even with the help of the others it was no use.

"Gabi, Falco, go get Y/n!"

The both ran out, looking everywhere until they found you curled up in the ropes. You groaned in annoyance as they woke you up.

"Y/n! Y/n! Hurry, Mikasa and Annie are fighting again, Armin said to come and get you."

You got up and shoved past them, storming over to the door. Slamming the door open you went to intervene their fight. Grabbing Annie and pulling her away before she was about to get hit, you to the blow instead.

Your head smacked against the wall giving you an immediate headache. Your head snapped towards Mikasa's direction making her flinch for a second.

"For fucks Mikasa would you contain yourself. Stop acting like a fucking animal and get used to the fact that everybody hates Eren. I wish he was dead! I would give nothing but to tear him limb for limb and take his power as my own."

Grabbing her by the collar you punched her in the nose, your fist making her face more bloody with each hit that she took. You zoned out, the anger you felt carried you into your own world and you failed to hear the others calling your name.

There pleads fell on your deaf ears, their strength together didn't stop you, not even for a second.

"Guys I know you're upset but please keep it- what the..."

"You like that, does this fuel your need to fight? Huh?"

You were ripped off of Mikasa, your arms pulled behind your back. Armin held Mikasa in his arms, pieces of your clothing were clenched in her fists as she spit out blood.

"Look who the beast is now."

"FUCK YOU. I WILL RIP YOU INTO FUCKING SHREDS ACKERMAN. YOU HEAR ME. FUCKING SHREDS."

You yelled as you were taken out of the room. You arms still tied together behind your back.

"Let me go bastard."

"Don't call me that. I'm saving you from killing us all."

"I don't ned your help Hanji."

"I don't care if you don't need it. And I'm not even giving it to you, I'm doing this so we don't all have to fear that you're gonna eat us all."

"Why would I do that? Why would you even think that?"

"Oh I don't know maybe it's because of the fact that you broke Mikasa's nose! Everyone is on edge right now Y/n, you've been good and helpful I do not need you to start getting into fights with Mikasa."

"Tell her to keep off of Annie then."

"Fine, I will. Just..stay away from everyone."

"Really?! I have to stay away, what about her? Does that beast get to stay with everyone? Because I teach her a lesson means I get to be punished and secluded from everyone else. How does that make any fucking sense Hanji?!"

"JUST KNOCK IT OFF. YOU'RE A THREAT OKAY. OUT OF EVEYONE HERE YOU ARE THE MOST DANGEROUS PERSON. I don't need you getting pissed off and transforming."

"Fuck you."

They threw you against the wall, their eyes glaring down at yours. In that moment you didn't feel the love you once felt for them. Your hatred for Paradis grew, now all you cared about was eliminating Eren.

"Get out of my face."

"Keep your cool, and you can hang around eveyone else. Lose it, and I'm throwing you off board."

They cut the ropes around your wrists and walked away. Slamming the door behind them as they went to attend to everyone else about the situation. You brought your knees up to your face, your tears getting your pants wet.

Looking around you thought of an idea, wiping your tears away you went to find a sharp object. You went back inside, and to your suprise everyone stepped back. They were afraid of you, that hurt. You hurt. The fact that you had made them so afraid hurt you.

You grabbed a knife and walked out, slicing your hand and jumping off the ship.

"Y/n! Y/n get back on this ship. Right now."

"No, I'm killing Jaeger with or without you. You're all afraid of me anyways, I'll ease your fear and leave."

"Y/n no, come on we need you here. We're not scared just come back.."

"I'm not listening to you."

You transformed in the water, rocking the ship in the process. You stepped farther away from the ship and walked away. Their voices becoming too quiet to hear as you got farther away.

You were going to kill Eren, whether everyone was on board or not. You were done with all the suffering, you were going to make sure that he died before you ever decided to pass on your titan abilities to someone else.
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[End of Chapter Twenty-three]

Oh lord venturing on your own now, what will happen? I'm still trying to figure out how I want to end this book. I know that's gonna be a relatively nice ending and not a 'wtf' kind of ending.

I have a few ideas but we'll see how it plays out.

I hope you enjoyed!
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