Wondrous Journey (completed)

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People like to look at what I have as a reason why I cant do certain things. and they think that if they make certain suggestions &  that I'd follow through with them.

just last week I found out that I was pregnant when I thought it was something like a virus or something that was making me feel ill.

and the doctor point blank told me cause I have limited vision I should not keep my baby and that It would be fine for me to go through with the pregnancy but as soon as the baby was born I should give it up for adoption so people could take care of my baby properly.

and I went off on that doctor's ass to the point nurses had to come and escort me outta there.

I had told him that just cause I had limited vision doesn't mean I can't take care of mine and my husband's baby. that I am perfectly fine tending to a baby and I will not be giving my baby up for adoption.  I told him he was a fucking piece of shit for saying that to me and that he doesn't know what I am capable of doing with the ability that I have.

after I handled his ass I went and got myself an appointment with an obgyn for the following week. 

Once I got home I was calmed down from the shit that occurred at the doctors office.

When I shared the news with Nestor he and I got into it.

he was just like the fucking doctor thinking that I cant do anything with my baby cause I have limited vision.

and I laid into his ass.

"it doesn't matter if I have full vision or limited I can and will take care of my baby, and if you think that I cant well you can go and fuck yourself Nestor.  I am not fucking stupid nor am I cripled. I am just limited with what I can see, yet I fucking survive and get by. so I know if I can keep myself alive and unharmed then I can and will fucking do the same for my baby. " I tell him

"just think about it" he says

"think about what? huh?" I asked

"how it will affect our kid" he says

"my limited vision will not affect our baby. so don't try that shit with me." I tell him

"you and I both know you can only do so much" he says

t that pint I was heartbroken cause he's saying this shit to me.

" I fucking hate you' I cried 

I walked off not saying anymore just went away from him and cried into Gunner's fur.

Nestor followed me and tried to apologize but it didn't do him any good I was hurt and heartbroken cause of his words.

"I can take care of my baby, and I don't need your help if you want to continue to think I cant do anything as if I'm stupid or shit" I tell him

"I'm sorry" he says

"no your not" I tell him

"I am. I shouldn't had said what I did to you" he says

I say nothing just continue to cry.

he walked off leaving me be till I let out an ear piecering scream then he ran to me.

I looked and seen I was bleeding.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOO" I cried

 Nestor picked me up and carried me off to his car before he sped to the hospital where the told me I miscarried.

I was a wreck having heard that.

after everything that was needing to be done till they discharged me I cried. 

once I got home I said not a word just stared off into space.

Nestor carried me inside and cleaned me up before he laid me in bed.

"I'm sorry you lost our baby 'cause we got into a fight. I should've been more supportive and happy instead of fighting with you" he says before he walked off.

I curled up and just started crying again as Gunner jumped up in the bed and lay before me.

I wrapped my arms around him and held him to me as I cried myself to sleep.