Wondrous Journey (completed)

7

It took me three months to fully heal from my loss. though I'll never forget my baby. 

Nestor apologized to me endlessly over the whole ordeal and kept telling me he shouldn't have said what he did or done as he had which lead to me overstressing and miscarrying.

after doing that he seemed to spend much more time working and staying away from home rather than spending time with me so we can mourn together.

I headed to the courthouse and I got divorce papers before I signed where I was needing to then headed to Miguel's.

"sorry Cataline he's not here" Emily says

"that's fine just give this to him" I say as I handed the manila envelope over to her and walked back to my car and headed home.

I spent most of my days with Gunner making sure that he was tended to and that nothing was gonna happen to him.

I went and got an angel wing with a little halo tattoo for remembrane of my lost baby.

it was only five days later that Nestor showed up with the divorce papers.

"so this is what you want huh?" he asked

"why should I suffer?" I asked

"how are you suffering?" he asked

"I am mourning alone, I'm experiencing so much shit that I'm surprised I've not been committed to a fucking crazy house or some hospital. I've been all alone in this heart breaking time when I shouldn't have been." I tell him

"I've been working" he says

"you always are even when your not" I replied

"meaning what?" he asked

"your not stupid Nestor. you know what I mean" I replied

"you wnt to divorce me cause I've stopped coming home?" he asked

"I'm not gonna fight you over this" I tell him

"I cant come home to you knowing I'm the reason our baby is gone" he says

I looked at him a bit surprised

"its not your fault" I tell him

"it is. I am the reason they are gone" he says

I stood before him and held his face in my hands.

"you're not why they are gone Nestor. they are gone cause I had a sist that I wasn't aware of. okay." I tell him

"what?" he asked

I nodded and dropped my hands.

" you walked out of the door and the doctor told me what caused my miscarriage" I tell him

"so it wasn't stressed from our fight?" he asked

I shook my head

He wrapped his arms around me and cried.

"I'm so sorry for abandoning you. I'm sorry for ignoring you when I should've voiced my worries and concern. I didn't know and it's my fault cause I walked out, and I never stuck around after to learn what was the cause" he says

I wrapped my arms around him and held him to me comforting him as he cried and I started to cry.

we spent quite a long time working out things and getting everything back in order the way it was before it seemed to go down the drain.

Now we are back to how we were.

It seemed like we needed to go through that path in our lives to learn some things which that last part with losing mine and Nestor's baby could've been something that I didn't want to experience. but it was part of that path and there is no going back to try and prevent that.

we made a promise to each other after finding out if I ever get pregnant that nothing would affect my pregnancy like sist. we promised and voweled to talk everything out and not fight or stress over things.

Nestor promised that he'd be there with me through it all.

he told me time and time again he can't wait to watch me with our baby and how our baby will be very well taken care of by the both of us.

he apologized for bringing up my limited vision as if I was incapable of doing anything when I'm more than capable of doing whatever I put my mind to.